The last thing I remembered was, I was having the best pleasure ever when my heart stopped beating. I knew I was a piece of shit, yeah, I suicided, I took those pills before meeting my wife, and today is our 10 years anniversary celebration. The guy who gave me these pills said after taking them, I would die when I was over-excited.

The last words I heard were my wife whispering "I love you so much, babe. So much..." She was so wet, especially her eyes, I could sink into it. Her touch, her fingers flow on my every skin, I thrilled, my breath was getting fast, I could hear her heartbeat, she swallowed, her eyes closed, her kisses on my nose, my lip, grabbed my hair so hard. We melted together…

I don't wanna talk about myself too much. I'm dead, who cares who I really was? I don't know where I am now, and why I still can talk to myself. Don't say I am in heaven or hell, I don't believe that shit.

But wait! Why am I so sure I am dead?

I can't explain that either, just got that strong feeling that I am dead. Whatever, never mind. So what's next? Am I going to talk to myself forever? I can't see or feel anything, I even can't tell if it's bright or dark.

But honestly, I am comfortable with it, no panic.

"L, welcome." Damm who's talking to me?

"Your first task is starting now. You will have to finish 10 tasks." That sound appeared again.

WTF I'm dead, right? - The only thing I can control. What's happening now? Who gives you the right to tell me what to do?

That sound didn't reply to me. It couldn't hear me?

"Open it." That sound was fading away.

And then I can see a scene now, a young lady cuddling me so tight.

"Mama...please! Please stay with me mama, please, please."

Ohh that young lady smells fresh, like newly grown grass. Why she's crying to me? Her eyelashes shaking, full of tears.

Then an ugly fat man tried to hold her shoulder.

"Baby girl, she's gone. The doctor said her brain was dead."

"You go away. Mama is still so warm, she's mine, and she will never leave me behind like this. It's all your fault, if you didn't go outside and buy that stupid flower, mama could be saved in time. You fucking ruined everything."

"Baby girl, I..."

"Fuck off."

What? Why don't you let that fat man explain himself? He was buying flowers, not cheating on your mama. Come on girl.

She's crying so bad, barely can breathe. I wanna put my arms around her, but soon I realized I couldn't control anything.

So I am the observer now? Such a boring thing, how long am I going to be stuck in here?

Fine, no one answers me.

Baby girl fell asleep finally. I look at her, she's really beautiful, I found a tattoo behind her ear, don't know what it means.

The next day, police officers came, and seemed to want to talk to this young girl, but that fat man stopped them, I could see through the window that they were whispering outside the door.

“Mama, are you with me now? Please, give me a response, anything. Can you roll your eyes to prove you can hear me? Or just curl your fingers, toes? I believe you're still here right? Mama please.“

"Cris, baby girl, you need to eat something, how about we go to your favorite restaurant?"

"Cris? How about some drinks, I brought you some milk, juice and your favorite Kaku. Baby, I learned it the whole night and finally made this Kaku, have a taste, please?"

"Baby..."

"Shut up. Shut up. Shut up!“ Ohh girl got so angry.

“I won't leave Mama, don't you dare shut down her life support machine."

Girl is losing control now, she yelled at everyone, screaming out all her sorrow.

"Why is it not you? Why is it not you!"

Oh wow, what am I looking at? A big drama!

Baby girl is biting that fat guy's face, punching. The police guys and nurses rushed in and tried so hard to separate them.

"Sir, she might need professional treatment..."

"No no no, she's fine, she's just too upset, please, please don't take her away from me, she is all I got now, please."

That fat man is bending his knees. His face is so dark, bleeding.

"Sorry, she is a threat to other patients now..."

"I can handle it. I can. Just bring her back to me, I can comfort her, I really can. Let me go, please. Don't touch her, you idiots. Let go of her, you fucking shit. I will kill you, you're hurting my baby girl, I'm fucking kill you. NO!"

What a mess!

Everyone is out of this room finally. And then the doctor came in.

"Doctor Tina, this patient's husband asked about something last night. He wanted to know whether this patient's body can carry life anymore?"

"WTF? Does he want to rape the patient and get her pregnant?"

Tina took a deep breath.

"Well technically, it's possible to make a baby. Because the patient is physically healthy, just lost consciousness but the chances of waking up are nearly zero. But morally, the patient is already dead. You cannot desecrate the body."

"We don't know what he is going to do. What a tragedy. Some said this patient was suicide, some said the girl killed her mom accidentally, others said was the husband who killed the wife..."

"Okay stop here. Don't gossip. It's a real-life passed away, not a comedy show. Where are your respects?"

"Sorry doctor Tina. But what if..."

"Don't say it. It's not our decision to make."

Everyone left. The room is back in silence.

I was shocked by what I just knew. But no one knew the truth, so I am more concerned about what am I doing here, what's my task exactly. I want to see this woman but I can't. I guess I'm an invisible spirit now, trapped in this woman's body.

"Hello, hello? Anyone can hear me?"

Okay fine, I'm totally alone here. Where is this woman's soul BTW? Her brain was dead so that soul was destroyed either? But how to explain that I am here? I was dead also.

OMG, what if that woman's soul was exchanged into my body? No way!! She couldn't! Damm!!! Oh wait, what if I was also brain-dead? Or maybe I was fully dead, even my body was cremated? Then she cannot do anything to my wife.

Oh fuck, that fat man came back. He sat by my side and stared at me. He held my hand, oh no, it's her hand.

"Honey..."

Ohh shit this creep is sucking her fingers. And then smelled her hair, kisses all around her face.

"You're so perfect now. You have never been more alive than you are now. I can do whatever I want to you, oh honey, I love you so much, more than anything."

Ohh wow, that's huge.

Wait wait wait what are you doing?!! She is not your toy, you fucking pervert! Oh I want to punch him in the face. Damm why I can not do anything?!

“What are you doing to my patient?”

“Sir, I need you to leave now, right now! It's treatment time.”

"Okay, sorry I am leaving."

"OMG did you see that? Doctor Tina."

“I knew. This patient is leaving the hospital tomorrow.”

"What? How can you allow him to take our patient away after what you just saw?!"

"Docter Jack, please be aware that we have no right to keep her in the hospital forever. He is our patient's husband."

"So what? We can tell the police and stop him."

"What's wrong with you? We have no evidence to prove anything."

"How can you say that? You really have a cold heart, Tina."

"That's enough! You know nothing, how dare you to talk to me like this!"

"Fine. Just admit that you're weak, and can't fight for your patient."

"Fight for what exactly? You tell me??"

"Stop him!"

"Stop him from what? That's his wife!"

"I know, but he cannot treat her like a doll, he should respect her. As long as she's still breathing, she is a human being, and she has the pride."

"If you say so, why don't you fight for her?"

"But she's not my patient."

"Haha you just can say the nice words."

"I will definitely fight for her if she is my patient."

"Come on. Stop your bullshit."

Jack left first.

Tina squeezed my hand.

"I am sorry, Kate. I have seen so many patients like you. Maybe you're still alive, maybe you're already gone, science still cannot prove that. No one knows exactly how our brain works."

"You know sometimes I think I am a killer rather than a saver. I thought to give people hope, but I actually pulled them into hell instead."

"Yeah, she had a 20% possibility to wake up. But the fact was she never woke up even when all her family passed away."

"Only 1% possibility to win the consciousness back, everyone believes he was dead, but he woke up eventually."

"So many cases like these, we still explore the truth behind it."

"Kate, I believe you want to find out the truth too. A sacrifice is a must-have. Come to me if you ever get a chance, I will be waiting."

Tina cocooned in my body, our cheeks pressed together. Her warm breath spread on my neck. Her heartbeat is so strong, her hands covered on mine.

"Tina, it's time. All clean now."

"Take her to the lab."