sitting still in a cafe i have feelings

feelings i dont understand but I know exist

it’s foggy outside -- I can’t see far but I know that the sun is out there -- it is shining and I am going to feel it’s warmth

there is a part of me that is afraid -- uncertain, I don’t KNOW what is coming

but then there is another part of me -- certain, knowing absoluteness that I am free -- that I am blessed and that I am safe and protecte

knowing this gives me courage -- I feel it deep in my soul.

it’s a block of iron, forged in fire, something that can not be taken nor lost

i felt it for a while now -- blessed, unseen -- ready to emerge

the volcano is about to frigggin erupt

my life -- flowers, petals falling to earth, nothing left but a meal

supper