10 Better is one day in your courts
than a thousand elsewhere;
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
than dwell in the tents of the wicked.

11 For the Lord God is a sun and shield;
the Lord bestows favor and honor;
no good thing does he withhold
from those whose walk is blameless.

12 Lord Almighty,
blessed is the one who trusts in you.

The last day of 2025 — and what a year it has been.

The negative person in me would say I wasted this year wallowing in despair.
The positive person in me would say I made new connections, new friends, and was exposed to new business ideas and perspectives I never had before.

Both can be true.

During my 36-minute sit today, the main message that surfaced was simple but confronting: stop focusing only on the negative. I’ve spent much of this year replaying what went wrong, when there were also many good things happening quietly in the background.

This year has been marked by prayer — asking God for His favor, and wrestling with Him over a crutch I’ve been holding onto for years. Wrestling with God never feels good. I felt a lot like Jonah this year. And we all know what happened when Jonah finally stopped running.

I’ve stopped running.

As the new year approaches, I pray God will point me to the place He wants me to be and show me clearly where He wants to position me.

I want to end this year with thanksgiving.

I’m thankful for my family, who have supported me throughout this season.
I’m deeply thankful for my boss — she stood by me through my entire ordeal, and without her steady encouragement, I honestly don’t know how this year would have ended.

I’m also grateful for the people God placed in my life this year. Even when I was running from Him, He was still drawing me back — not only to Himself, but through people He sent to pull me out of despair.

Even when I gave up on myself, God never gave up on me.

A friend asked me a question two days ago that has stayed with me:

“If money wasn’t an issue — if you had a $3 million credit line — what would you do with it to generate more money?”

That question reopened a part of my mind I had quietly shut down. I used to think this way, but somewhere along the line, I stopped allowing myself to.

The real game isn’t reaching a certain number.
It’s building systems that generate revenue.

There is money everywhere.
Money wants to grow.
The world doesn’t lack money — it lacks ideas.

Another friend told me recently that I have a lot of lived experiences worth sharing and encouraged me to start posting again. Lately, different people have been suggesting things to me — and I’ve noticed how often I’ve been saying no to myself.

As 2026 approaches, my prayer is simple:

That I would find myself again.
That I would trust God for everything I need.
That I would rebound stronger than ever.

To God be all the glory.

I’ll be starting 2026 by dedicating a fast to God — to start the year right and walk closely with Him.

10 Better is one day in your courts
than a thousand elsewhere;
I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God
than dwell in the tents of the wicked.

11 For the Lord God is a sun and shield;
the Lord bestows favor and honor;
no good thing does he withhold
from those whose walk is blameless.

12 Lord Almighty,
blessed is the one who trusts in you.

The last day of 2025 — and what a year it has been.

The negative person in me would say I wasted this year wallowing in despair.
The positive person in me would say I made new connections, new friends, and was exposed to new business ideas and perspectives I never had before.

Both can be true.

During my 36-minute sit today, the main message that surfaced was simple but confronting: stop focusing only on the negative. I’ve spent much of this year replaying what went wrong, when there were also many good things happening quietly in the background.

This year has been marked by prayer — asking God for His favor, and wrestling with Him over a crutch I’ve been holding onto for years. Wrestling with God never feels good. I felt a lot like Jonah this year. And we all know what happened when Jonah finally stopped running.

I’ve stopped running.

As the new year approaches, I pray God will point me to the place He wants me to be and show me clearly where He wants to position me.

I want to end this year with thanksgiving.

I’m thankful for my family, who have supported me throughout this season.
I’m deeply thankful for my boss — she stood by me through my entire ordeal, and without her steady encouragement, I honestly don’t know how this year would have ended.

I’m also grateful for the people God placed in my life this year. Even when I was running from Him, He was still drawing me back — not only to Himself, but through people He sent to pull me out of despair.

Even when I gave up on myself, God never gave up on me.

A friend asked me a question two days ago that has stayed with me:

“If money wasn’t an issue — if you had a $3 million credit line — what would you do with it to generate more money?”

That question reopened a part of my mind I had quietly shut down. I used to think this way, but somewhere along the line, I stopped allowing myself to.

The real game isn’t reaching a certain number.
It’s building systems that generate revenue.

There is money everywhere.
Money wants to grow.
The world doesn’t lack money — it lacks ideas.

Another friend told me recently that I have a lot of lived experiences worth sharing and encouraged me to start posting again. Lately, different people have been suggesting things to me — and I’ve noticed how often I’ve been saying no to myself.

As 2026 approaches, my prayer is simple:

That I would find myself again.
That I would trust God for everything I need.
That I would rebound stronger than ever.

To God be all the glory.

I’ll be starting 2026 by dedicating a fast to God — to start the year right and walk closely with Him.