i said to myself i dont think i could have a kid Id get to upset

because I am impatient and don't want to hear them whining

and then I look at what the next thing I could say to bother may be

and then what followed was this convo we have had in the mind before

and then it fuels the destain and imagery

and then that loops into the motive until I realize I would never do such a thing

I've seen to much

our history is present in our convo history that is

me and the implanters and or those who choose to watch

I think at some point it feels good to ruin the room

and to have these horrible things mixed with what I do like

or it feels good to just say these out of reaction

it feels almost method

but i have to be careful when saying this because they are likely to think the worst of it, nor think its not objective but personal

there is an opportunity in the mind to do evil

when they ask these things, i see this opportunity and go for it

SO IT SEEMS IF I DO NOT HAVE AUTO THEN PLEASE IGNORE

but then I'm like this was not for me

this was for them

and it conflicts with my moral compass

you go looking for it

i have no idea why i guess you don't like them

and i think that's ok tbh

per usual i have no history of schizophrenia or hearing voice in my mind

sincerely, Robert