No seriously. What the hell is happening?
This post is going to go deep so feel free to read certain parts or just skim. Nothing is really that important.
The reason why I am wondering what the “hell” is going on is that if you take a real good look at your current experience, you’ll notice that whatever is arising is completely rare. This moment that you are witnessing will never come back in exactly the same way, ever.
There is a feeling of doubt. The personal mind seems to embody this idea that there is a personal world that is individual to me. But it seeming more and more apparent that this is not the case. I have nothing to do with what is appearing in front of me. I didn’t pick it. It just appears to me. Which is a odd proposition to make when you’ve spent all your life thinking that the world revolves around you.
The world
Thoughts
Emotions
This is all we ever really experience. The world outside, the thoughts in the mind, and feelings in the heart. That’s it.
Its remarkably simple but yet habitual thinking and acting can make these facts seem unimportant. If you’re spending all your time absorbed in a sub-routine within your own psyche, how can you ever expect to change. You’re a slave.
And so the importance of developing strategies and understandings that allow you to stay apart from the mechanical workings of the mind and heart.
Why is it that we are completely okay with the clouds floating by. But when an emotion comes up inside, we’re lost. What is the difference between the cloud and your emotion? A lot but it doesn’t matter. Look in the other other direction. What is the same between the cloud and emotion?
You are aware of both.
Since you are aware of both, what does either have to do with you? Wouldn’t that presuppose that you are not the objects that you are aware of. Your experience is made up of these objects. And thank god for it. Could you imagine spending all of eternity in an objectless dimension? that would suck. The multiplicity of things and people and objects makes this experience interesting.
I think we have a problem with perspective. You are not the mind, but the mind does hold certain beliefs about this world that may be unhelpful.
Take the seat of your Self and allow everything else to flow as it naturally has, no need to mess around with it too much. Be aware and conscious of the energies that bubble up to the surface in need of release. Your body can handle all this and clean itself out. You’re just stopping it from doing its job. So just let it do its thing.
This means that if you take a seat, lean back from your current experience into that which experiences. You’ll be able to find a place, which is not a place, but a knowing that you can rely on.