Before you scroll!

This writing is about the reason behind 2 artworks “Radiant & Sunset” but the content is more about me venting out, so its a little bit un-structured and might not be family friendly, you dont have to read or care about it. Read at your own risk.

And I might hide this article if i find it weird or cringe on a later day. (Eventhough it stays on blockchain)

Where there's a light, the shadow persists.

     I tried to depict the memories of pure happiness in my childhood thinking of having fun all day long, before it all changed.

The day when I was a kid and we goes on vacation, I smiled brightly as we see sunrise on a mountain and a sunset on a beach.

All is fine and I live my life normally.

Till I grew more and more mature, I realized something isn’t right but I underestimated it by spooning myself its just my own overthinking.

     Few years later, one day my mom found out that my father is having a very weird and long time relationship with a minor through his phone. Evidence of both of them was chatted around remembering the one time they are in a hotel together.

My mom then secretly showed it to me and my older brother. She cried and told us to let it be, for the sake of this family because none of us have any income and I was still in uni at the time.

Out of option so we said ok.

Days after days, my mom becomes more open to me and I find out they never had good terms for few years.

From her not knowing exactly how much money my father has/made, the sudden mysterious debt coming after covid, a repeat of my mom's saving forcefully taken.

My mom was scared of him, I know sometimes he uses high tone in some arguments towards my mom but I thought it was a normal case.

     Things are revealing, I started to understand way back when my mom suddenly transferred me a huge amount of money and said "don’t use it", was to avoid my father forcing to borrow her entire saving.

At one point my mom worried that he would leave us, so then I started selling some stuff and try to make money, and NFT happened to be on my radar so I tried it too.

My gut said fk it, leave uni, save the money, focus on making money asap. Waiting to graduate and try to get a job becomes unworthy in my situation.

More days passed, more problems present. There were actually 2 girls he was having mysterious relationship with.

My mom found out that my father's parents knew this all along and let them be because the girl often gifted them something.

It was very complicated at this point, long story short my father's sibling (idk what it is in english, but let’s call her Mrs X) knew what happened and thankfully is on my mom's side.

From that day Mrs X tries to spy a bit and she said that her parents kept saying that its all my mom's fault for being a b*tch and burdening my father. Spreading lies while my father closing ears.

Then after another few months, I finally made enough money as a safety in case my father is leaving us.

So I gave my mom a new option: As I’m the only family member that is rebellious and mentally & physically brave enough against my father, I told her to let me confront him to make it all clear and handle it myself if things go wrong.

My mom was scared if my father goes mad and not ready for it to happen, but I can’t resist hearing her cry every night.

Next few days I finally confronted him with my mom watching on the side, he was most of the time quiet and barely denying about the girls. Some nonsense excuses thrown out.

And the one final ridiculous answer from him was "Let the time tell". Without apologies.

I’m struggling to control myself but there was no harm done as I’m trying to understand what he actually means.

That was around 2 years ago and I never talked to him ever since, though his answer is still haunting me.

Its still unresolved and I never expected this outcome, I probably might have chosen the wrong path.

Last another thing, I have a gf that I *suppose* to marry in the future but I honestly don’t have the courage anymore to ask her parent when my family is still falling apart. I’m truly sorry for being such a burden for making my gf wait even longer.

So I created these artworks while thinking about all the above things.

Wondering myself if things ever come to an end and if I ever have the chance to see and feel the warmth of the sun again.

     Don't worry, I’m fine and more than enough to stay sane. I am still passionate at creating art and happy to have made so many good friends in web3.

Thank you for being with me!

Before you scroll!

This writing is about the reason behind 2 artworks “Radiant & Sunset” but the content is more about me venting out, so its a little bit un-structured and might not be family friendly, you dont have to read or care about it. Read at your own risk.

And I might hide this article if i find it weird or cringe on a later day. (Eventhough it stays on blockchain)

Where there's a light, the shadow persists.

     I tried to depict the memories of pure happiness in my childhood thinking of having fun all day long, before it all changed.

The day when I was a kid and we goes on vacation, I smiled brightly as we see sunrise on a mountain and a sunset on a beach.

All is fine and I live my life normally.

Till I grew more and more mature, I realized something isn’t right but I underestimated it by spooning myself its just my own overthinking.

     Few years later, one day my mom found out that my father is having a very weird and long time relationship with a minor through his phone. Evidence of both of them was chatted around remembering the one time they are in a hotel together.

My mom then secretly showed it to me and my older brother. She cried and told us to let it be, for the sake of this family because none of us have any income and I was still in uni at the time.

Out of option so we said ok.

Days after days, my mom becomes more open to me and I find out they never had good terms for few years.

From her not knowing exactly how much money my father has/made, the sudden mysterious debt coming after covid, a repeat of my mom's saving forcefully taken.

My mom was scared of him, I know sometimes he uses high tone in some arguments towards my mom but I thought it was a normal case.

     Things are revealing, I started to understand way back when my mom suddenly transferred me a huge amount of money and said "don’t use it", was to avoid my father forcing to borrow her entire saving.

At one point my mom worried that he would leave us, so then I started selling some stuff and try to make money, and NFT happened to be on my radar so I tried it too.

My gut said fk it, leave uni, save the money, focus on making money asap. Waiting to graduate and try to get a job becomes unworthy in my situation.

More days passed, more problems present. There were actually 2 girls he was having mysterious relationship with.

My mom found out that my father's parents knew this all along and let them be because the girl often gifted them something.

It was very complicated at this point, long story short my father's sibling (idk what it is in english, but let’s call her Mrs X) knew what happened and thankfully is on my mom's side.

From that day Mrs X tries to spy a bit and she said that her parents kept saying that its all my mom's fault for being a b*tch and burdening my father. Spreading lies while my father closing ears.

Then after another few months, I finally made enough money as a safety in case my father is leaving us.

So I gave my mom a new option: As I’m the only family member that is rebellious and mentally & physically brave enough against my father, I told her to let me confront him to make it all clear and handle it myself if things go wrong.

My mom was scared if my father goes mad and not ready for it to happen, but I can’t resist hearing her cry every night.

Next few days I finally confronted him with my mom watching on the side, he was most of the time quiet and barely denying about the girls. Some nonsense excuses thrown out.

And the one final ridiculous answer from him was "Let the time tell". Without apologies.

I’m struggling to control myself but there was no harm done as I’m trying to understand what he actually means.

That was around 2 years ago and I never talked to him ever since, though his answer is still haunting me.

Its still unresolved and I never expected this outcome, I probably might have chosen the wrong path.

Last another thing, I have a gf that I *suppose* to marry in the future but I honestly don’t have the courage anymore to ask her parent when my family is still falling apart. I’m truly sorry for being such a burden for making my gf wait even longer.

So I created these artworks while thinking about all the above things.

Wondering myself if things ever come to an end and if I ever have the chance to see and feel the warmth of the sun again.

     Don't worry, I’m fine and more than enough to stay sane. I am still passionate at creating art and happy to have made so many good friends in web3.

Thank you for being with me!