I feel like I just want to be witnessed. But then at the same time I don't. I don't know if it's the autism or what, but I feel like I'm warring with myself in my own mind. I want to share so much with the world, but I don't ever want to experience fame. I want to show ideas to the masses, but I don't want to be praised for it. I want my art to find its audience, but I could never do a normal exhibition. My brain is logic based and art focused and it pulls on 2 different polarities or extremes of my brain. It's the one thing I hate about autism is not knowing if it's me or the autism. I don't know what it is but there's definitely a longing for human connection deeper and more meaningful than I'm experiencing. I recognize that my current geographic location on Earth perhaps isn't ideal for meeting other like minded people. I just feel like there has to be others out there that think deeply and love and care about others even more deeply. True friendships that matter with people who have the same vibe.