not sure yet. there are things i kind of want. like to buy a house. and smaller things that would be nice. but nothing really big yet
the thing i find about making that kind of money is that when i’m making it i’m usually having too much fun and am too busy to care about spending it on anything 🤣
okay, i started a new thing and it feels cringe af and is probably a terrible idea, but when the whales give you instructions you must obey
i’m starting a new manifestation challenge and am shooting videos to share
the goal: manifest $100k using only inspiration and effortless action. i already received a surprise cheque for $10k so that’s 10% complete already!
so far the vibe is like law of attraction meets nathan fielder???
anyway, i’ll post occasional videos here and you can follow elsewhere if you want the full series. support is appreciated while i get things off the ground!! 🙏🏻
https://www.tiktok.com/@marlo_herehttps://www.instagram.com/rich.witch.clubhttps://youtube.com/@marloljohnson
if you think this content would work on some other platform let me know which one. happy to cross post elsewhere and see how it goes
if you can be triggered, you can be steered
those interested in controlling the masses will always weaponize fear and exploit empathy. reactivity is exactly what they want
the easiest people to manipulate are those who need to look or feel like a good person at all times
if you feel passionate about a cause, choose a positive desired outcome and work steadily and optimistically towards that. do not succumb to reactivity and give your power away. do not be used or distracted. do not feed hate and division. choose what is genuinely important and stay true to your positive path
what you fight only grows stronger
what mental illness is it where you get an idea for a project and, while contemplating whether or not you should do it, a whale swims by your house so now you think you have to
one of the most powerful things i ever did in life was choose to work for the light
it might sound a bit insane, but there was a point in my 20s when i knew i needed a big change. i decided that it was time to stop living for myself and choose something greater. i chose to live in service of the light—the positive side of creation. the side that creates beauty, healing, and connection. you could call this whatever you like, but light resonates with me
practically, this means avoiding things like lying, manipulation, deception, exploitation, ignorance, sabotage, or revenge, and not enabling or feeding these patterns in others. it means considering the greater good in your choices and actions (as well as your self—martyrdom is not service). it’s about truly accepting the responsibility of oneness
and oneness means power
after i made this choice my life shifted dramatically. it felt like the universe was finally conspiring in my favour. it became much easier to shift out of survival mode and create the life i wanted. i felt a dramatic increase in inspiration and excitement for life. and i also felt more powerful in the esoteric sense. i started to connect with a deep intuitive knowing that made no logical sense but would repeatedly prove itself accurate. i started to feel far more in control of my reality. and i finally started experiencing material success
i wasn’t a bad person before, i just wasn’t clear
with the light, 2021. minted on one of the first manifold contracts via etherscan
it’s possible that we will see a post-scarcity world in our lifetimes, where money is worthless or nonexistent and everyone has what they need
what will matter then is one’s own ability to create value. what will matter is your creativity, integrity, and compassion for others
are you ready?
when i was a kid i had a fairly psychotic competitive streak
if i thought i had a chance to get the top grade, i would. my best subject was math, and i loved tests
in volleyball class i would aim ruthlessly at the weakest player’s forehead, who would usually panic and flail
in rugby i once got kicked in the face, and immediately scored a try while bleeding from the mouth
i could do the most pushups, the most chin-ups, the biggest leg press
i was always quietly watching and keeping score so i could make sure i was better than everyone else
i could tune anything out to compete, including fatigue and pain
i loved crushing egos and i loved to win
but it was a pretty antisocial way of being and eventually i decided to be liked instead
there’s a part of me that misses that fire, but not the reasons for it. i needed external validation and a distraction from inner turmoil. i needed to avoid failure
focusing on winning was a good escape, and it was nice to be seen as smart and accomplished
this year i feel that fire returning, but in a different way. i want to find a place for it that is more grounded and doesn’t require beating anyone else
for now it will be channeled into art, presence, and finding some new goals
it still feels a bit psychotic but it won’t be used at anyone else’s expense anymore. this time only the worst versions of myself will be defeated
2016 was when i first felt like i had achieved my dream life
i didn’t really have any money, and my health was mostly crappy, but i somehow got all the things i wanted anyway
focusing on the lifestyle i wanted rather than money was a huge key to that. i was uncompromising
10 years later i pretty much have the same life, and it’s still what i want. my net worth has increased but that hasn’t really affected my lifestyle. it has helped me improve my health though. being able to afford help with healing has been huge
the most interesting lesson about getting what you want, which i’m sure you’ve heard before: once the novelty wears off you still feel about the same
if you’re depressed before you’ll probably be depressed after, unless you put in the work to change things. you might even feel worse because you worked so hard and are still failing to be happy and just appreciate your life. failing at gratitude when you have so much feels terrible
unironically love an ios update that’s so bad it makes me want to stop using my phone completely. i already try to make it as annoying as possible by using all greyscale app icons with no labels. now it’s even worse 🙏🏻
i’ve been working on regulating my nervous system for a long time, and am finally having some success now that i’ve stopped using relaxation techniques. want to know what actually helps me the most?
focusing on being more powerful
trauma can create maladaptations where you shrink and hide to avoid danger, but these do not make you feel truly safe
safety comes from knowing someone with high agency is there for you and will do whatever it takes to make sure you’re always okay
you need to be that person for yourself, and practice it until you feel invincible
new heart
oil painting on canvas, covered with over 10,000 individually hand-stitched glass miyuki beads
new heart is about innocence, trauma, and self-reclamation. generally, my work focuses viscerally on a sole desired outcome or state, but with almost 150 hours in creating this piece, it was a far slower and more personal process
every artwork is treated like a magic spell—a conjuring of more of what I want to feel and to see in this world. I meditate to achieve the desired state and maintain it while expressing the vision that comes through. for new heart, I knew this would be more of a challenge. transcending enough trauma to be able to feel the intended state—innocent, open-hearted, and light—is not something I could do in one session of meditation. even with more time, it felt like it might be impossible, but I needed to try
the beads are a representation of consciousness, of bringing things into the light to be fully seen—and there was much to see and to feel as I went along. while stitching each bead onto this painting, I felt like I was slowly stitching together a long-neglected wound. though physically complete, this artwork remains a work in progress until I can embody it. still, it serves as a reminder of the sublime beauty in healing, in opening, in letting go
to create this piece, the coloured gradient was applied to the canvas first, and approximately 10,400 translucent white glass beads were then individually stitched into it, creating a layer that feels much like ice, snow, or frost. there’s a beautiful purity to it, and coldness
should i make more of these?
how i know i’m back on my bullshit (manifesting)
amazing thrift store finds — found my dream belt in the perfect size for $1 after looking for years. found a large box of red incandescent lightbulbs for $3 while i had a tab open trying to find the same thing online. was feeling wistful about some shoes i miss from 20 years ago. found the perfect replacement brand new unworn in my size for $7 (and lots more things)
decided to save up $10k so i could have a cash cushion for once (not just crypto etc). got a $10k cheque in the mail 10 days later that was a complete and utter surprise
constant inspiration — besides the occasional bad moment, every day i feel excited and inspired to write, create, and build. from this state it’s very difficult to not achieve everything i want
