There are some things I know I can't refuse, such as drinking and laziness. But what happens after the change? Maybe he'll be another fool. Should there be a formula for the media? My friend asked me to train. Maybe after a long training, I can say it, so I can be at ease. I can't say the words between falsehood and reality, but what I say is the words from the bottom of my heart. If you can't cope with the world of fame and wealth, return to your own world Working in a mental hospital is still very discriminated against. Our hospital went to participate in the chorus competition of the health system. As soon as the host reported to the mental hospital, he burst into laughter. However, I work there. There are my colleagues and friends there. I use this job to support myself. At the new book signing meeting, someone asked: what kind of animal is a mental patient? I answered: mental patients are people. Maybe this kind of answer is boring, but I have to answer many questions honestly. My biggest fear is to say it myself and be pointed out immediately, "you're lying.". I started writing poetry before I knew the poet Yang Li. Maybe it was a group that found him. At that time, I was crazy about poetry. Family and husband wife relationship came second. Yang Li and I will also quarrel over the problems of life, but because there are poems, everything else can be overcome, which is why many people miss the 1980s. Today's environment is even more difficult to deal with. The whole people attach importance to fame and wealth. People like us only live in their own world without confrontation with all this. In the 1990s, I got divorced and was in a bad mood. So I stopped working without pay to do book publishing business and made thousands of dollars. But the business didn't go on. My colleagues in the mental hospital advised me not to give up a serious job, so I went back to work in the mental hospital - in fact, I was too lazy to change. Working as a nurse in a mental hospital doesn't seem like human work. In fact, it's OK. I can stay all the time, at least I'm happy. Moreover, I wrote a book after 30 years, so the mental hospital still gave me a lot of things. Just like in the spring of the cattle herding class, the child waited until his father came to pick him up, and finally really waited. Mental patients are actually their happiest moment when they get sick, especially manic patients. They are very happy when they get sick, because they are omnipotent and can become anyone they want to be: God, scientific genius, Li Bai... There is nothing they can't do in this world, although it is a kind of morbid from our point of view. In the past, there was a glass window between the staff and the mental patients. When they were manic, they would knock on the window to annoy you. You had to deal with all kinds of strange problems. If he thinks he's an emperor, pretend he's an emperor. The most terrible thing is when they hallucinate, because you can't predict what he will hear and see. Sometimes they attack you because of hallucinations. There are night shifts in mental hospitals. Patients sleep and nurses have to watch. Many nurses love smoking. One is to keep themselves awake, and the other is to pass the time. But one advantage of working in a mental hospital is that after work, the job can be finished and completely forgotten. It's happy to waste your youth, because you're wasting it where you're willing to waste it I like drinking and playing mahjong, but every time I finish playing mahjong, I'm bored to death. I think it's a waste of time. It's empty and boring. I want to die. I'm too lazy to play cards for a few days. Card friends are another group of people I associate with besides poets and colleagues. There are more forthright and fun people, but they certainly won't be kind enough to win you money. Gambling is addictive. It's much better now. I won't take the initiative to play. After losing a lot of money for so many years, I finally feel boring. In the past two years, I suddenly feel old. If I don't write, I really can't write anymore. When I was young, I felt that my whole head was empty, just like the state of a mental patient. I often felt as if I were in heaven. Now with precipitation, people become rational, but in words, creativity becomes weak. They just know how to write, such as how to write novels, how to build a framework and how to go on. In the past, inspiration was natural, but now we have to find it hard. Young people's things can be compared. They will envy and never write anything like that again. As a woman, youth is gone, not beautiful, I must care very much. Often think: if there is a youth medicine, it would be better to have another regret medicine, and find back the wasted youth and time. However, when you waste, you should be very happy, because you waste it where you are willing to waste it. That is to think, because many things can't be done In fact, being a mother hasn't changed much for me. My son's name is Yang Youli. He is in his twenties. He lived with his grandparents since childhood. Now he rents a house by himself. We sometimes eat together. He doesn't want me to cook because my cooking is too bad. Cooking has been difficult for me for so many years. I have breakfast and lunch in the hospital canteen and have a casual dinner. The consumption in Chengdu has been very high in recent years, and the happiness of Chengdu people is getting worse and worse. I have lived here for more than 20 years. I don't have much recognition of this city. I don't feel like I'm from Chengdu without learning the way Chengdu people behave. When I was young, I felt that if I fed and warmed my children, they would grow up by themselves. I'm probably old recently. I feel guilty that I don't love him enough. Now write a book and give him some money in case it sells well. Today's society is different from the 1980s. Young people are under great pressure. They compare cars and houses. But he is different. He is a little proud of a pair of poet parents. He will read my books and discuss them with me. He is still interested in literature. Ambition is probably a bad habit. You set yourself too hard, plan every minute and every second, and live in goals all the time. It will be hard to achieve what goals you want to achieve at the age of 20 and what goals you want to achieve at the age of 30. But my life can't be summed up in comfort, anxiety, or more directly, failure. I failed in many ways, divorced, once addicted to gambling, playing mahjong, drinking and didn't write a few books. But I also have high requirements for life. Of course, I also thought about it. Everyone will think about it. But just think about it, I can't do many things.

There are some things I know I can't refuse, such as drinking and laziness. But what happens after the change? Maybe he'll be another fool. Should there be a formula for the media? My friend asked me to train. Maybe after a long training, I can say it, so I can be at ease. I can't say the words between falsehood and reality, but what I say is the words from the bottom of my heart. If you can't cope with the world of fame and wealth, return to your own world Working in a mental hospital is still very discriminated against. Our hospital went to participate in the chorus competition of the health system. As soon as the host reported to the mental hospital, he burst into laughter. However, I work there. There are my colleagues and friends there. I use this job to support myself. At the new book signing meeting, someone asked: what kind of animal is a mental patient? I answered: mental patients are people. Maybe this kind of answer is boring, but I have to answer many questions honestly. My biggest fear is to say it myself and be pointed out immediately, "you're lying.". I started writing poetry before I knew the poet Yang Li. Maybe it was a group that found him. At that time, I was crazy about poetry. Family and husband wife relationship came second. Yang Li and I will also quarrel over the problems of life, but because there are poems, everything else can be overcome, which is why many people miss the 1980s. Today's environment is even more difficult to deal with. The whole people attach importance to fame and wealth. People like us only live in their own world without confrontation with all this. In the 1990s, I got divorced and was in a bad mood. So I stopped working without pay to do book publishing business and made thousands of dollars. But the business didn't go on. My colleagues in the mental hospital advised me not to give up a serious job, so I went back to work in the mental hospital - in fact, I was too lazy to change. Working as a nurse in a mental hospital doesn't seem like human work. In fact, it's OK. I can stay all the time, at least I'm happy. Moreover, I wrote a book after 30 years, so the mental hospital still gave me a lot of things. Just like in the spring of the cattle herding class, the child waited until his father came to pick him up, and finally really waited. Mental patients are actually their happiest moment when they get sick, especially manic patients. They are very happy when they get sick, because they are omnipotent and can become anyone they want to be: God, scientific genius, Li Bai... There is nothing they can't do in this world, although it is a kind of morbid from our point of view. In the past, there was a glass window between the staff and the mental patients. When they were manic, they would knock on the window to annoy you. You had to deal with all kinds of strange problems. If he thinks he's an emperor, pretend he's an emperor. The most terrible thing is when they hallucinate, because you can't predict what he will hear and see. Sometimes they attack you because of hallucinations. There are night shifts in mental hospitals. Patients sleep and nurses have to watch. Many nurses love smoking. One is to keep themselves awake, and the other is to pass the time. But one advantage of working in a mental hospital is that after work, the job can be finished and completely forgotten. It's happy to waste your youth, because you're wasting it where you're willing to waste it I like drinking and playing mahjong, but every time I finish playing mahjong, I'm bored to death. I think it's a waste of time. It's empty and boring. I want to die. I'm too lazy to play cards for a few days. Card friends are another group of people I associate with besides poets and colleagues. There are more forthright and fun people, but they certainly won't be kind enough to win you money. Gambling is addictive. It's much better now. I won't take the initiative to play. After losing a lot of money for so many years, I finally feel boring. In the past two years, I suddenly feel old. If I don't write, I really can't write anymore. When I was young, I felt that my whole head was empty, just like the state of a mental patient. I often felt as if I were in heaven. Now with precipitation, people become rational, but in words, creativity becomes weak. They just know how to write, such as how to write novels, how to build a framework and how to go on. In the past, inspiration was natural, but now we have to find it hard. Young people's things can be compared. They will envy and never write anything like that again. As a woman, youth is gone, not beautiful, I must care very much. Often think: if there is a youth medicine, it would be better to have another regret medicine, and find back the wasted youth and time. However, when you waste, you should be very happy, because you waste it where you are willing to waste it. That is to think, because many things can't be done In fact, being a mother hasn't changed much for me. My son's name is Yang Youli. He is in his twenties. He lived with his grandparents since childhood. Now he rents a house by himself. We sometimes eat together. He doesn't want me to cook because my cooking is too bad. Cooking has been difficult for me for so many years. I have breakfast and lunch in the hospital canteen and have a casual dinner. The consumption in Chengdu has been very high in recent years, and the happiness of Chengdu people is getting worse and worse. I have lived here for more than 20 years. I don't have much recognition of this city. I don't feel like I'm from Chengdu without learning the way Chengdu people behave. When I was young, I felt that if I fed and warmed my children, they would grow up by themselves. I'm probably old recently. I feel guilty that I don't love him enough. Now write a book and give him some money in case it sells well. Today's society is different from the 1980s. Young people are under great pressure. They compare cars and houses. But he is different. He is a little proud of a pair of poet parents. He will read my books and discuss them with me. He is still interested in literature. Ambition is probably a bad habit. You set yourself too hard, plan every minute and every second, and live in goals all the time. It will be hard to achieve what goals you want to achieve at the age of 20 and what goals you want to achieve at the age of 30. But my life can't be summed up in comfort, anxiety, or more directly, failure. I failed in many ways, divorced, once addicted to gambling, playing mahjong, drinking and didn't write a few books. But I also have high requirements for life. Of course, I also thought about it. Everyone will think about it. But just think about it, I can't do many things.