“And you, my son Solomon, acknowledge the God of your father, and serve him with wholehearted devotion and with a willing mind, for the Lord searches every heart and understands every desire and every thought. If you seek him, he will be found by you; but if you forsake him, he will reject you forever. Consider now, for the Lord has chosen you to build a house as the sanctuary. Be strong and do the work.” 1 Chronicles 28:9-10

Monday was the day—the day of redemption, the day of renewing, the day of coming back to God. I woke up determined to put God first in my mornings—a daily commitment and reminder to go to my father in heaven. I woke up excited and inspired to get into my Bible and determined to pray outdoors at the lake near my house. Thank God for days off!

Unfortunately, on Sunday, I felt the total opposite. I was so angry at myself because of everything I had been putting first in my life. The daily grind of work and ensuring I am present in all areas of life at a high level is exhausting. Lately, I have seen things slowly becoming a higher priority in my daily life. I was slowly drifting from God so slightly. Many need me daily, and I can't afford to "drop the ball". The respect of those who lead at a greater capacity and are faithful to God is something I strive to imitate daily. God, thank you for the leaders in the church!

On Sunday, I found myself in my indignation watching videos about very successful people today. Their drive and hunger towards the visions they have set out make me envious that somebody can be so driven to take action. Most successful people are fully devoted and willing to sacrifice for their company. They are not in it for the money but for the benefit of others. Elon Musk, for example, works 80 hours a week, getting next to no sleep, and is determined to drive the world forward with electric vehicles and space exploration. In the book "Elon Musk, by Walter Isaacson" Elon stated, “I took all of my money and put it in this company". He is willing to sacrifice everything to help the world temporarily. I like to study successful people in the world in my spare time because I love to see men and women bent on being devoted and committed to their vision. Also, I find I can learn a lot about time management and unwavering devotion. All the things they accomplish are so profound. I thought to myself…. “How radical am I for God?”, “Am I truly giving my all to God and his people?”, “How much do I need to sacrifice to see God's vision come true?” My reflection gave me a depressing answer. I am not giving my all God wants. He wants everything. I thought to myself, "I am only alive on the earth for about 70 years on this planet, and I am worried about such earthly things that are of no sustaining value." The unwavering devotion to God is what I found had slipped away so subtly.

I mourn because of my self-reliant, sinful nature. I started reading books and learning about these tendencies to help me understand why. Why am I like this? Can I get rid of it? (will share findings soon). I find it hard to trust or even allow God to work fully in my life. I refuse to let myself stop what God wants for me, even as I fight against my thoughts every single day. I have to remind myself daily that my thoughts are not his thoughts nor my ways his ways. 

I recently came to Denver, where God called me on a mission. The work is much, and the call is high. There is no way this church grows unless I lay my life down and devote myself to building it with what God entrusted me with. I remind myself today this is what it is all about. God is not a God of circumstance but of power and faith. I am grateful for this calling God has placed on me. Full surrender. Full obedience. Full sacrifice. Full love. Full service. Now is not a time to get discouraged or even fearful. In the face of fear and doubt, I will choose to walk in faith, knowing if I seek God's face daily, he will be with me. I have an excellent vision for the church, and I know that it will be where God wants it in a year!

Peace.

“And you, my son Solomon, acknowledge the God of your father, and serve him with wholehearted devotion and with a willing mind, for the Lord searches every heart and understands every desire and every thought. If you seek him, he will be found by you; but if you forsake him, he will reject you forever. Consider now, for the Lord has chosen you to build a house as the sanctuary. Be strong and do the work.” 1 Chronicles 28:9-10

Monday was the day—the day of redemption, the day of renewing, the day of coming back to God. I woke up determined to put God first in my mornings—a daily commitment and reminder to go to my father in heaven. I woke up excited and inspired to get into my Bible and determined to pray outdoors at the lake near my house. Thank God for days off!

Unfortunately, on Sunday, I felt the total opposite. I was so angry at myself because of everything I had been putting first in my life. The daily grind of work and ensuring I am present in all areas of life at a high level is exhausting. Lately, I have seen things slowly becoming a higher priority in my daily life. I was slowly drifting from God so slightly. Many need me daily, and I can't afford to "drop the ball". The respect of those who lead at a greater capacity and are faithful to God is something I strive to imitate daily. God, thank you for the leaders in the church!

On Sunday, I found myself in my indignation watching videos about very successful people today. Their drive and hunger towards the visions they have set out make me envious that somebody can be so driven to take action. Most successful people are fully devoted and willing to sacrifice for their company. They are not in it for the money but for the benefit of others. Elon Musk, for example, works 80 hours a week, getting next to no sleep, and is determined to drive the world forward with electric vehicles and space exploration. In the book "Elon Musk, by Walter Isaacson" Elon stated, “I took all of my money and put it in this company". He is willing to sacrifice everything to help the world temporarily. I like to study successful people in the world in my spare time because I love to see men and women bent on being devoted and committed to their vision. Also, I find I can learn a lot about time management and unwavering devotion. All the things they accomplish are so profound. I thought to myself…. “How radical am I for God?”, “Am I truly giving my all to God and his people?”, “How much do I need to sacrifice to see God's vision come true?” My reflection gave me a depressing answer. I am not giving my all God wants. He wants everything. I thought to myself, "I am only alive on the earth for about 70 years on this planet, and I am worried about such earthly things that are of no sustaining value." The unwavering devotion to God is what I found had slipped away so subtly.

I mourn because of my self-reliant, sinful nature. I started reading books and learning about these tendencies to help me understand why. Why am I like this? Can I get rid of it? (will share findings soon). I find it hard to trust or even allow God to work fully in my life. I refuse to let myself stop what God wants for me, even as I fight against my thoughts every single day. I have to remind myself daily that my thoughts are not his thoughts nor my ways his ways. 

I recently came to Denver, where God called me on a mission. The work is much, and the call is high. There is no way this church grows unless I lay my life down and devote myself to building it with what God entrusted me with. I remind myself today this is what it is all about. God is not a God of circumstance but of power and faith. I am grateful for this calling God has placed on me. Full surrender. Full obedience. Full sacrifice. Full love. Full service. Now is not a time to get discouraged or even fearful. In the face of fear and doubt, I will choose to walk in faith, knowing if I seek God's face daily, he will be with me. I have an excellent vision for the church, and I know that it will be where God wants it in a year!

Peace.