I am grateful of all the opportunities and miracles that happen in my life. They happened, and they are still happening.

In the previous blog, we have let out certain emotions in our 'rant'. While these emotions are our power, we also allow ourselves to understand the situations clearly to move on from there with much love.

Manifestations, whether intentional or not, are always happening because of certain thoughts that we have. They are the causes and the ends, the beginnings in the hands.

Watched certain episodes of a reality show of the TCM (Traditional Chinese Medicine) practitioners understanding the clear symptoms. Then, the experienced ones explaining the ways of healing to the others.

Each and every happening in life is still contributing to the other things and consequences in our lives.

With whatever happening, there are still many choices in life.

Oh, also, having my art cards being packed and put around the essential oils &// plant extracts made them feel so great like a mindful ritual.

I love how the research of different researchers about the new stuff, a.k.a. unexplored ways to heal are getting accepted more and more. Despite the research gaps and biases, there are many experiments done fairly with love.

And, that's it. The rest would evolve from there onwards. I have high hope on our civilisation, so I have high hope on that too.

Each time I meditate, the chakras are imagined, visualised, and felt in ways that align with my condition. It's definitely magical.

When I'm sitting on a bench after raining while jotting down my thoughts about the plans with love, the meditation before and/or after felt like the ripples and vibrations just get to go from within and shine all beyond.

It's just different.

While we pivot and rebranded our mental health tech name to 'accepted by nature' while maintaining this with Mental Health Engineering, it's a surprise to see that many events on my feed are also in nature. In Malaysia, this year's definitely the first to see some places hosting and joining in the crowd to gather therapeutic booths in nature for healing. They came from different hosts and collaborations of different people though.

I also had that in mind, but in a different form earlier.

It made me think that the collective creativity and consciousness is letting us love the connection with nature while we talk about healing now. I'm glad to know about that as I still remember people asking me about 'competitors' or 'competitive strengths' while all I could think about is 'mutual growth' and 'collaborators who form ecosystems that evolve with much kindness and love'. I think I'm definitely happy that many of the events in nature also choose a relatively eco-friendly way to happen in our physical realm. Also, knowing more research to fill in the gap of healing in a variety of ways that are suitable for different people with much love.

there's a comeback of one of my favourite reality shows. Well, I don't know. I felt touched and just simply really touched to see that there are still people who would just let their 'name' really go through a lot or fade away just to make the others laugh and tell stories that touch the other people's hearts. It's like a way to connect people and let the others know that being alive is so valuable in this world. And, making it all sound amazing. Making all problems sound ridiculous that is able to be laughed away within minutes.

I love that. I love it all.

Thanks, with love.

I think I really feel 'wow' when I see that some founders/people in charge/leaders just get to forgive people and forgive themselves easily while they blend different sides so well.

I... I stay so firm to my stances that I kinda need a translator between me and the people around me so that it doesn't hurt me and it doesn't hurt them too, sometimes. In the past.

Maybe art does that. My art does. Or, maybe I am not aware of me having the bargaining power? Nah, that's cringey. They even called it negotiating power and persuading power. I would say simply communication with those I love.

The ones who take time to really know would know.

That's just what I know.

I still stay firm to my stances, but differently. In a way that just let nature holds me.

Do you know how much an environment and the people we talk to can change about us?

Do you know how much one conversation can change this world?

Do you know how many fish are there in the whole wide world?

Maybe you do.

But even if you don't, how much does it matter?

in cases where it matters,

that's when it doesn't matter anymore to me...

at least, to me, until...

...until portals to different parts of the world start to reopen for me.

Worlds physically, mentally, spiritually and beyond.

Worlds and portals.

Portals and worlds.

Then, worlds and portals again.

I saw a person who were the great comedian with a pal that's so cool.

Without the pal, reforming different groups, something seemed off.

On another side, some people were standing out more than the others in groups. I didn't understand why they didn't get to the places that they definitely could.

Then, they came back with different people, and they did.

Some people were seen again and again, leaving certain impact. But just gone and gone again. They tried again and again as lost little lambs. Then, they weren't suitable on that stage as they were on the other stages.

But they came back just because they felt happy themselves.

Before they headed on the other stages again.

I think it's cool.

They all reminded me of myself and the people around me.

Idk how, but I felt all of them.

I wanted to say things like Blender, Nomad Sculpt, animating, a certain code language that could be used for creating a Blender Addon or the other tech projects that's in my mind.

But I can't anymore.

I don't think in such ways anymore. At least not now.

Even when dealing with colour correcting in Davinci Resolve, I didn't think about mastering a skill of editing video, but more like playing. And, just simply playing and being alive.

The moments of 22 in Soul movie and the other momentary shots in different creatives show this treasured moment of mine that's being felt.

Everyone's up to something for something so that they have something.

I can't.

I don't think I can really talk to them.

And they don't know why.

Although I told them why.

I clearly did.

Yet to them, it's still done so abruptly.

I love them though, like little babies growing into little children running around with what they think about the world is like. Playing games in ways that seem slightly outdated to me while I try to change the game.

I love myself, clearly.

But I took a long, long time to forgive myself and the whole world. When the anger warns me, and the tear saves me while it cleanses me, and that's when I finally see...

how beautiful my heart has always been and always will be.

I love myself for being me.

Thanks for listening to another long story.

I'm glad to have readers at this age of mixing identities.

thanks w/ love,

Chee

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