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The autumn wind kept blowing rustlingly, the autumn rain kept falling, and the sycamore trees and plantain leaves outside the window rustled loudly, making a very autumnal feeling. Dark green curtains hang low. Under the light, I sat beside the desk in front of the window, silently reading the book. There are a few osmanthus flowers in the bottle on the table, which seems to be too lonely, so I will send the fragrance over from time to time. Ask me to look up at it. He seemed to smile at me and said, "Bing Xin! Although it is 'autumn rain and autumn wind is sad' outside the window, it is as warm as spring inside the window!"

What I hold in my hand is a copy of "Wonderful Good Words Notebook", which I picked up inadvertently when I was cleaning my bookcase today, and I have been away from it for more than a year. I picked it up and read it tonight, and it was as joyful as the reunion of old friends. I saw the same "Magnolia Flower Slow": "The old man knows whether he is healthy or not, and it has been a while of autumn... Where do we meet, the remnant listens to the wild goose, the sunset calls the gull..." When the page is over here, I turn to that article go. Suddenly, an envelope, from the pages of the book, fell on the table. Turning over the letter, I saw the words "Bing Xin personally opened" written on it. I don't feel stuck. Could it be dazzling? This is clearly the handwriting of Yingyun, a classmate who has not known the information for a long time! When was it caught in this book? He opened the letter suspiciously and read it from beginning to end. After reading it, my nerves suddenly became confused. The impression of a tragedy a year ago came to my eyes again.

Yingyun was one of my classmates in middle school. She was only two years older than me. When it comes to her morality and knowledge, she is really an extraordinary young man. The temperament is very high and lively, and the ambition is extremely lofty. The classmates all said that Ying Yun looks very beautiful. In my opinion, there is nothing particularly beautiful about her face and body. However, she naturally possesses a kind of extraordinary abundance, which makes her seem different from everyone else. Among her classmates, she gets along best with me and Shuping. Shuping is one year older than Yingyun, and has a very quiet and quiet personality. Although his qualifications are far inferior to Ying Yun, he is extremely diligent. Therefore, his homework is on a par with Yingyun, but his other talents are far behind. During the winter exam the year before last, Shuping got up in the middle of the night to warm up the class many times. She was cold and coughed and contracted hemoptysis. She still struggled to attend classes every day, and she was overworked, her brain was severely injured, and her illness became more and more serious day by day. Her home is in Baoding again, and no one is waiting for her day and night. Teachers and classmates are worried about her. They quickly moved her from the dormitory to the hospital. In less than a week, he died.
Every time I think back on the day Shuping died, it is as clear as what happened yesterday. The sun was out for a while that morning, but it was cloudy in the afternoon with a few showers of heavy snow. After the meal, Yingyun and I came out of the dining room and walked to the court while talking. The branches and the ground were covered with snow, and the soles of his feet seemed to be on moss after the rain. As Yingyun walked, he picked up a broken branch and knocked on the willow tree beside the court. The snow on the branches fell one after another, blowing on my face with the wind. I quickly turned around and said, "Yingyun! Don't be naughty." She smiled and suddenly asked, "Are you going to see Shuping this afternoon?" I said: "Not sure yet. If she's better, I don't have to go." We stopped at the same time. Yingyun said: "Yaqin came back yesterday and told me that Shuping's illness is probably not good, and she can't even speak clearly. She stood in front of Shuping's bed, Shuping took her hand, and just cried and called her mother, you Look..." I stayed for a while and then said, "How about... the foundation of young people is firmer, this is just because the fever is too high, it's just nonsense." Ying Yun shook his head and said, "Doctor Said she had meningitis. I hope she gets better, but it may not be easy." I sighed and said, "If... we'll go out after school and go out to have a look." At this time, the hall bell rang, and we all went together. Go upstairs.

two After four o'clock, Yingyun and I went to the principal's office to take a leave of absence to see Shuping. The principal remained silent for a long time. After a while, he said in a very low voice, "You don't have to go, this morning at seven o'clock, Shuping has passed away." This sentence sounded like a thunderbolt, and Yingyun and I both stood there, looking at each other and saying no. speak out. Later, Yingyun said, "Principal! Can you give us permission to send her off?" The principal hesitated for a while, and then said, "I heard that the burial has been installed, and the doctor said that this disease is recruiting people, so it's better not to go, theirs The parents have also arrived. The train is leaving tonight." Yingyun said: "Since it's already pretending to be buried, and I'll be leaving in a while, it's okay to go and see what I expect, and it's not in vain for us to have a good relationship with her classmate." Tears rolled down as I spoke, and I didn't dare to raise my head for a while. The principal had to allow it, we withdrew and went to the hospital. The coffin was parked on the porch of the ward. When I saw it, my heart became cold, and I believed that Shuping was really dead. Could it be that this rectangular box can lock this rare young man inside and never get out! There were no tears at this time, and he just stared blankly at the coffin. After a while, he raised his head, only to see Yingyun looking at the sky with silent eyes, without saying a word. It was not until Shuping's parents came out to answer the ceremony that we felt sad for a while, we couldn't help weeping, and we left the courtyard with the coffin. They came back together listlessly. I didn't eat dinner either. I picked up a few books by myself and walked back to the dormitory on the snow. The ground was white, like moonlight. While walking, I heard someone playing the piano in the piano room, but the tone was very sad. I thought, "Isn't this Yingyun?" I walked slowly to the door of the piano room and listened for a while, then gently pushed the door in. Under the light, she looked back at me, then turned back. I put the book on the piano platform, stood for a while, and then asked, "What score are you playing?" Ying Yun still played the piano, and replied, "This tune is called 'Heroes of the Wind and Snow', and it is a The Saxon cavalry, who escaped from the enemy's fort in the snowy night, was badly wounded, and fell on the snow in the forest, doing it when he was dying." After saying this, we remained silent for a long time. I sat on the other side of the piano chair, flipping through the music, sighed and said, "Young people with aspirations should not die. Young people with aspirations in China should not die. You see a character like Shuping, who will become a future leader in the future. I am afraid that she is not a promising person in the women's world, but she died again, and her knowledge, talents and aspirations have been wiped out, and she has always been prepared and tempered, but it has ended like this, which is really disheartening." Ying Yun slowly stopped. Qin raised her head and said, "You think it's a tragic thing that your body is dead. But you don't know if you want to die, it's even more tragic!" I nodded, not knowing what she meant. Yingyun added: "I died rashly, and I don't know or feel all the pain. It's just that the body is still alive, but the hope seems to be closed in the tomb. That's called..." At this time, she lowered her head again, and tears began to flow. drip on the piano. I was very surprised, because these words of hers did not express her condolences to Shuping. She seemed to have other feelings, so she forced a smile and persuaded: "You are here again, and you are hurting your heart again. It's all my words. Yes." Ying Yun stood up listlessly, wiped his tears, and said, "I don't know why I'm very troubled and restless tonight. I was going to play the piano to relax my mind, but I unknowingly played this miserable tune." Put the lid on the piano, pick up the book and say: "Let's go, don't be too pessimistic." We walked out of the piano room at the same time, and returned to the dormitory through the snow gap.
three Spring is here again, and the land is booming with business. Our sadness towards Shuping was also gradually faded away by the spring fan, and we still lived happily in that school. The big exam in the spring has passed, and only after the graduation ceremony of Class A is over, it will be summer vacation. The graduation ceremony was at four o'clock that afternoon. At seven o'clock, there was another meeting of the teachers and students of the church. It is also a farewell and a farewell to the graduates. Preparing for entertainment, etc., always means end-of-life entertainment. At five o'clock that night, the students were all casually chatting and playing on the court. Because Yingyun is going to play the entertainment tonight, she is a queen of Greece in the play, so she looses her hair and curls it with a piece of paper. He didn't dare to come out, so he hid in my room and leaned on the bed to read a book. I sat on the windowsill, picked the leaves of the vines with my hands, and talked to Yingyun. On the green grass downstairs, under the roses, the students sat and walked in twos and threes. The golden setting sun encircled this world of flowers and willows. There is a group of happy and lively young people in the middle. This setting sun and fragrant grass can be drawn, but the happy and lively hearts of young people cannot be drawn! At the farewell party in the evening, we were all very happy and satisfied. The queen of Yingyun in the play is especially wonderful. All the classmates praised her in unison, saying that she has an attitude of "like a dragon and a bird". Afterwards, Yaqin said the farewell speech, and the graduate representative replied, and the meeting was closed. It was about nine o'clock at that time. When I came out of the auditorium, I saw the moonlight was like water, and the students played in the courtyard again. Young-woon and I were sitting on the steps together, gossiping. At this moment, a cool breeze was blowing, and the jacket was fluttering. Yingyun pushed back the hair on his forehead with his hand, and said with a smile: "Bingxin! If you know this time next year, we will graduate." I couldn't help laughing, and said, "What is it after graduation?" Yingyun said, "It doesn't mean it's nothing, but the days of serving the society are getting closer every day. It's good to try this athlete." I asked, "After graduation, do you still want to go to university? Yingyun nodded and said, "Of course, the current middle school graduates have a lot of vehicles, and it is not easy to gain the respect of the society. Moreover, I am still young and have little experience. Naturally, I should continue to study advanced knowledge for the future. Wouldn't it be more beneficial in terms of service?" Yingyun and I stood up together and walked back and forth on the porch to talk. The shadows of roses under the porch shine on the porch and shake uncontrollably. When we walked, it seemed that the porch was moving, and we were afraid to step on it. This month was also in a very perfect season, and the clear light was blazing, as if it was deliberately shining on us. Yingyun was very happy tonight, smiling all the time, and asked me: "Is there anyone in the world happier than us?" I also smiled: "It seems not." Yingyun said: "The happiest The era of hope is the era of hope. The greater the hope, the greater the happiness." I nodded, but thought in my heart: "The greater the hope, the greater the pain when encountering setbacks." At this time, Shuping suddenly came back to his mind, but he didn't dare to say it, for fear of dispelling Yingyun's interest. well! Looking back on it now, I deeply feel that I didn’t say it at the time. Because that night, Ying Yun's smile of contentment was the last time in my eyes. During the summer vacation, I didn't get half a letter from Yingyun. I was very puzzled, and I blamed her a little bit. On the first day of school in the fall, all the classmates came, and there were many new students, and the auditorium was full. I walked into the auditorium and looked around for Yingyun, but couldn't find it. Just as I was about to ask Yaqin, Yingyun suddenly walked in from outside. Rongguang was very thin, so I stood up and wanted to go over and talk to her. At this time, several classmates called her with a smile: "Mrs. He is here." I was taken aback. At the same time, I saw Yingyun blushed and the circles of his eyes were also red. Yaqin hurriedly winked at those classmates, who didn't know why, so they stopped talking. I walked slowly, and Yingyun saw me only smiling miserably, nodding, and the color became even more terrified. I didn't dare to speak to her either, so I returned to my seat, very suspicious. After the opening ceremony, I took Yaqin and inquired about Yingyun in detail. Yaqin said: "I am not far from her home, so I know a little bit. After the summer vacation, Yingyun returned to Tianjin. In less than a week, she left the cabinet. I heard that she was hired by her cousin named Shizhi. Her uncle was a commander and the family was extremely wealthy. Yingyun went over there, and there was no one up and down who didn't praise her. I don't know why Yingyun is so depressed, I only know that she is very reluctant to be mentioned about it. " From then on, Yingyun seems to have changed a person, not only does he not laugh often, but he does not even talk much. Sitting quietly on his seat all day long, his footprints never reach the stadium, reading and doing things, he is all alone. I don't want to be with others, and my homework is not necessarily very good. The classmates said: "After Yingyun left the cabinet, he has become much more mature." Someone else said, "Yingyun has become more slender recently." I think where is Yingyun's old age, he is simply "dead in heart". Where is slender, it is simply a pin-up. I often feel sorry for her in my heart, but I never dare to have a long conversation with her. He didn't dare to ask her about her situation in detail, for fear that it would touch her grief. Therefore, I had a lot of separation with her outside, and her attitude gradually became negative, but I was still positive, and I became even more alienated. Another year has passed. This year, because Ying Yun's attitude has changed greatly, I have also suffered a lot of losses, and in terms of homework, I have gained much less benefit from pondering and learning from each other. And other classmates can't always be as intimate as Ying Yun, so it's a lot less fun. However, when I was about to graduate that year, there was always happiness and hope in my heart, and my eyes were set on the future, so I didn't care about the pain at the moment.
The autumn wind kept blowing rustlingly, the autumn rain kept falling, and the sycamore trees and plantain leaves outside the window rustled loudly, making a very autumnal feeling. Dark green curtains hang low. Under the light, I sat beside the desk in front of the window, silently reading the book. There are a few osmanthus flowers in the bottle on the table, which seems to be too lonely, so I will send the fragrance over from time to time. Ask me to look up at it. He seemed to smile at me and said, "Bing Xin! Although it is 'autumn rain and autumn wind is sad' outside the window, it is as warm as spring inside the window!"

What I hold in my hand is a copy of "Wonderful Good Words Notebook", which I picked up inadvertently when I was cleaning my bookcase today, and I have been away from it for more than a year. I picked it up and read it tonight, and it was as joyful as the reunion of old friends. I saw the same "Magnolia Flower Slow": "The old man knows whether he is healthy or not, and it has been a while of autumn... Where do we meet, the remnant listens to the wild goose, the sunset calls the gull..." When the page is over here, I turn to that article go. Suddenly, an envelope, from the pages of the book, fell on the table. Turning over the letter, I saw the words "Bing Xin personally opened" written on it. I don't feel stuck. Could it be dazzling? This is clearly the handwriting of Yingyun, a classmate who has not known the information for a long time! When was it caught in this book? He opened the letter suspiciously and read it from beginning to end. After reading it, my nerves suddenly became confused. The impression of a tragedy a year ago came to my eyes again.

Yingyun was one of my classmates in middle school. She was only two years older than me. When it comes to her morality and knowledge, she is really an extraordinary young man. The temperament is very high and lively, and the ambition is extremely lofty. The classmates all said that Ying Yun looks very beautiful. In my opinion, there is nothing particularly beautiful about her face and body. However, she naturally possesses a kind of extraordinary abundance, which makes her seem different from everyone else. Among her classmates, she gets along best with me and Shuping. Shuping is one year older than Yingyun, and has a very quiet and quiet personality. Although his qualifications are far inferior to Ying Yun, he is extremely diligent. Therefore, his homework is on a par with Yingyun, but his other talents are far behind. During the winter exam the year before last, Shuping got up in the middle of the night to warm up the class many times. She was cold and coughed and contracted hemoptysis. She still struggled to attend classes every day, and she was overworked, her brain was severely injured, and her illness became more and more serious day by day. Her home is in Baoding again, and no one is waiting for her day and night. Teachers and classmates are worried about her. They quickly moved her from the dormitory to the hospital. In less than a week, he died.
Every time I think back on the day Shuping died, it is as clear as what happened yesterday. The sun was out for a while that morning, but it was cloudy in the afternoon with a few showers of heavy snow. After the meal, Yingyun and I came out of the dining room and walked to the court while talking. The branches and the ground were covered with snow, and the soles of his feet seemed to be on moss after the rain. As Yingyun walked, he picked up a broken branch and knocked on the willow tree beside the court. The snow on the branches fell one after another, blowing on my face with the wind. I quickly turned around and said, "Yingyun! Don't be naughty." She smiled and suddenly asked, "Are you going to see Shuping this afternoon?" I said: "Not sure yet. If she's better, I don't have to go." We stopped at the same time. Yingyun said: "Yaqin came back yesterday and told me that Shuping's illness is probably not good, and she can't even speak clearly. She stood in front of Shuping's bed, Shuping took her hand, and just cried and called her mother, you Look..." I stayed for a while and then said, "How about... the foundation of young people is firmer, this is just because the fever is too high, it's just nonsense." Ying Yun shook his head and said, "Doctor Said she had meningitis. I hope she gets better, but it may not be easy." I sighed and said, "If... we'll go out after school and go out to have a look." At this time, the hall bell rang, and we all went together. Go upstairs.

two After four o'clock, Yingyun and I went to the principal's office to take a leave of absence to see Shuping. The principal remained silent for a long time. After a while, he said in a very low voice, "You don't have to go, this morning at seven o'clock, Shuping has passed away." This sentence sounded like a thunderbolt, and Yingyun and I both stood there, looking at each other and saying no. speak out. Later, Yingyun said, "Principal! Can you give us permission to send her off?" The principal hesitated for a while, and then said, "I heard that the burial has been installed, and the doctor said that this disease is recruiting people, so it's better not to go, theirs The parents have also arrived. The train is leaving tonight." Yingyun said: "Since it's already pretending to be buried, and I'll be leaving in a while, it's okay to go and see what I expect, and it's not in vain for us to have a good relationship with her classmate." Tears rolled down as I spoke, and I didn't dare to raise my head for a while. The principal had to allow it, we withdrew and went to the hospital. The coffin was parked on the porch of the ward. When I saw it, my heart became cold, and I believed that Shuping was really dead. Could it be that this rectangular box can lock this rare young man inside and never get out! There were no tears at this time, and he just stared blankly at the coffin. After a while, he raised his head, only to see Yingyun looking at the sky with silent eyes, without saying a word. It was not until Shuping's parents came out to answer the ceremony that we felt sad for a while, we couldn't help weeping, and we left the courtyard with the coffin. They came back together listlessly. I didn't eat dinner either. I picked up a few books by myself and walked back to the dormitory on the snow. The ground was white, like moonlight. While walking, I heard someone playing the piano in the piano room, but the tone was very sad. I thought, "Isn't this Yingyun?" I walked slowly to the door of the piano room and listened for a while, then gently pushed the door in. Under the light, she looked back at me, then turned back. I put the book on the piano platform, stood for a while, and then asked, "What score are you playing?" Ying Yun still played the piano, and replied, "This tune is called 'Heroes of the Wind and Snow', and it is a The Saxon cavalry, who escaped from the enemy's fort in the snowy night, was badly wounded, and fell on the snow in the forest, doing it when he was dying." After saying this, we remained silent for a long time. I sat on the other side of the piano chair, flipping through the music, sighed and said, "Young people with aspirations should not die. Young people with aspirations in China should not die. You see a character like Shuping, who will become a future leader in the future. I am afraid that she is not a promising person in the women's world, but she died again, and her knowledge, talents and aspirations have been wiped out, and she has always been prepared and tempered, but it has ended like this, which is really disheartening." Ying Yun slowly stopped. Qin raised her head and said, "You think it's a tragic thing that your body is dead. But you don't know if you want to die, it's even more tragic!" I nodded, not knowing what she meant. Yingyun added: "I died rashly, and I don't know or feel all the pain. It's just that the body is still alive, but the hope seems to be closed in the tomb. That's called..." At this time, she lowered her head again, and tears began to flow. drip on the piano. I was very surprised, because these words of hers did not express her condolences to Shuping. She seemed to have other feelings, so she forced a smile and persuaded: "You are here again, and you are hurting your heart again. It's all my words. Yes." Ying Yun stood up listlessly, wiped his tears, and said, "I don't know why I'm very troubled and restless tonight. I was going to play the piano to relax my mind, but I unknowingly played this miserable tune." Put the lid on the piano, pick up the book and say: "Let's go, don't be too pessimistic." We walked out of the piano room at the same time, and returned to the dormitory through the snow gap.
three Spring is here again, and the land is booming with business. Our sadness towards Shuping was also gradually faded away by the spring fan, and we still lived happily in that school. The big exam in the spring has passed, and only after the graduation ceremony of Class A is over, it will be summer vacation. The graduation ceremony was at four o'clock that afternoon. At seven o'clock, there was another meeting of the teachers and students of the church. It is also a farewell and a farewell to the graduates. Preparing for entertainment, etc., always means end-of-life entertainment. At five o'clock that night, the students were all casually chatting and playing on the court. Because Yingyun is going to play the entertainment tonight, she is a queen of Greece in the play, so she looses her hair and curls it with a piece of paper. He didn't dare to come out, so he hid in my room and leaned on the bed to read a book. I sat on the windowsill, picked the leaves of the vines with my hands, and talked to Yingyun. On the green grass downstairs, under the roses, the students sat and walked in twos and threes. The golden setting sun encircled this world of flowers and willows. There is a group of happy and lively young people in the middle. This setting sun and fragrant grass can be drawn, but the happy and lively hearts of young people cannot be drawn! At the farewell party in the evening, we were all very happy and satisfied. The queen of Yingyun in the play is especially wonderful. All the classmates praised her in unison, saying that she has an attitude of "like a dragon and a bird". Afterwards, Yaqin said the farewell speech, and the graduate representative replied, and the meeting was closed. It was about nine o'clock at that time. When I came out of the auditorium, I saw the moonlight was like water, and the students played in the courtyard again. Young-woon and I were sitting on the steps together, gossiping. At this moment, a cool breeze was blowing, and the jacket was fluttering. Yingyun pushed back the hair on his forehead with his hand, and said with a smile: "Bingxin! If you know this time next year, we will graduate." I couldn't help laughing, and said, "What is it after graduation?" Yingyun said, "It doesn't mean it's nothing, but the days of serving the society are getting closer every day. It's good to try this athlete." I asked, "After graduation, do you still want to go to university? Yingyun nodded and said, "Of course, the current middle school graduates have a lot of vehicles, and it is not easy to gain the respect of the society. Moreover, I am still young and have little experience. Naturally, I should continue to study advanced knowledge for the future. Wouldn't it be more beneficial in terms of service?" Yingyun and I stood up together and walked back and forth on the porch to talk. The shadows of roses under the porch shine on the porch and shake uncontrollably. When we walked, it seemed that the porch was moving, and we were afraid to step on it. This month was also in a very perfect season, and the clear light was blazing, as if it was deliberately shining on us. Yingyun was very happy tonight, smiling all the time, and asked me: "Is there anyone in the world happier than us?" I also smiled: "It seems not." Yingyun said: "The happiest The era of hope is the era of hope. The greater the hope, the greater the happiness." I nodded, but thought in my heart: "The greater the hope, the greater the pain when encountering setbacks." At this time, Shuping suddenly came back to his mind, but he didn't dare to say it, for fear of dispelling Yingyun's interest. well! Looking back on it now, I deeply feel that I didn’t say it at the time. Because that night, Ying Yun's smile of contentment was the last time in my eyes. During the summer vacation, I didn't get half a letter from Yingyun. I was very puzzled, and I blamed her a little bit. On the first day of school in the fall, all the classmates came, and there were many new students, and the auditorium was full. I walked into the auditorium and looked around for Yingyun, but couldn't find it. Just as I was about to ask Yaqin, Yingyun suddenly walked in from outside. Rongguang was very thin, so I stood up and wanted to go over and talk to her. At this time, several classmates called her with a smile: "Mrs. He is here." I was taken aback. At the same time, I saw Yingyun blushed and the circles of his eyes were also red. Yaqin hurriedly winked at those classmates, who didn't know why, so they stopped talking. I walked slowly, and Yingyun saw me only smiling miserably, nodding, and the color became even more terrified. I didn't dare to speak to her either, so I returned to my seat, very suspicious. After the opening ceremony, I took Yaqin and inquired about Yingyun in detail. Yaqin said: "I am not far from her home, so I know a little bit. After the summer vacation, Yingyun returned to Tianjin. In less than a week, she left the cabinet. I heard that she was hired by her cousin named Shizhi. Her uncle was a commander and the family was extremely wealthy. Yingyun went over there, and there was no one up and down who didn't praise her. I don't know why Yingyun is so depressed, I only know that she is very reluctant to be mentioned about it. " From then on, Yingyun seems to have changed a person, not only does he not laugh often, but he does not even talk much. Sitting quietly on his seat all day long, his footprints never reach the stadium, reading and doing things, he is all alone. I don't want to be with others, and my homework is not necessarily very good. The classmates said: "After Yingyun left the cabinet, he has become much more mature." Someone else said, "Yingyun has become more slender recently." I think where is Yingyun's old age, he is simply "dead in heart". Where is slender, it is simply a pin-up. I often feel sorry for her in my heart, but I never dare to have a long conversation with her. He didn't dare to ask her about her situation in detail, for fear that it would touch her grief. Therefore, I had a lot of separation with her outside, and her attitude gradually became negative, but I was still positive, and I became even more alienated. Another year has passed. This year, because Ying Yun's attitude has changed greatly, I have also suffered a lot of losses, and in terms of homework, I have gained much less benefit from pondering and learning from each other. And other classmates can't always be as intimate as Ying Yun, so it's a lot less fun. However, when I was about to graduate that year, there was always happiness and hope in my heart, and my eyes were set on the future, so I didn't care about the pain at the moment.

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