Not only for work, but also for choosing a different city, but also for a different life. My friend Qingwan came to Xi'an from Beijing. We went out together. She walked as fast as the wind and left me far behind. Qingwan said that she had walked as slowly as possible. Looking back, the Coldplay from Hohhot was easily thrown away by me. But he walked unhurriedly, completely stepping on the rhythm of his own life. As far as our lives go, it doesn't make much difference to take two steps faster or two steps slower. The reason why we do everything possible to choose a path is just to choose a path that is more friendly to ourselves. To this end, we go to study and learn, carve ourselves in the rules, spare no effort, and strive to make progress. The same is true. My roommate who performed well in the "National Examination" is doing well now; as a roommate of a middle school teacher, he is also doing well. And I was very depressed for a while, but it was also the result of the choices I made to live a better life. It was as if I was doing an arithmetic problem, subtracting a little here, adding a little there, until I came up with an answer that I was happy with. When we are young, we have many choices, and there are countless possibilities in the future. We always want to choose the most favorite one from the countless answers. When people reach middle age, they find that the paths of choice are gradually decreasing. Life is no longer a multiple-choice question, and even the test papers of life are slowly closing.

Once you were desperate for a life with a head in sight, now you panic about a life without a head. Talk show actor Hulan said that he loves tossing, saying, "I'm not blood pressure, I don't need stability." But when you reach a certain age, you will find that stability is really important for blood pressure and childhood. But in fact, I really liked the life in the past - it was often bad, and occasionally irrational. It was like a crooked path, which was far from Qingyun Avenue, but it was up to me to do what I did. until it is me. Rather than giving up all possibilities and choosing a life from the very beginning, I prefer to go around like this and turn to a "failure" life that is all useless at the end.

In my understanding, everyone's life cannot be replicated. My parents and their peers didn't think so at first. I remember when I quit my job for the first time, my mother was flustered when she heard it, she felt that her son had no future - how could there be someone who hasn't stayed in the same job for 30 years? How unfortunate that is! Now I tell her that after 8 months without orders, our studio finally couldn't stand it and decided to disband. My mother didn't respond, she thought, isn't this what it should be? Do you still want to be stupid? She has more confidence in me than I do in myself, and thinks I've changed jobs many times anyway, not bad this time. On the day the studio was disbanded, I was walking in the corridor, looking at the small companies with their doors open on both sides. Some had changed their plaques, some had dark lights, and some were still busy. We moved in in high spirits a year ago, walking upstairs and downstairs, excitedly planning how to grow bigger in the future, but now we have a headache with nowhere to put our office furniture. A few years ago, my former boss told me that a company should be satisfied if it can open for 5 years, and we can count as a success if we persisted for more than 5 years. I don't agree with what he said. I blame him for not receiving an advertisement for more than half a year. He really didn't work hard. Now, the company I work for has closed twice, and I seem to understand him a little bit—every time the world works together, and it is not free to transport heroes.

Sure enough, only people who are middle-aged can understand middle-aged people. I can lose the business and refuse to accept that I have no choice. For example, when my elders tried to persuade me to have a child, they used to sum it up in one sentence: "In the future, if you don't live well in your old age, you will understand my painstaking efforts." Paying the price, fair trade, no bullying, why should you go overboard? When the world is going up, the air vent can make any person who enters by mistake fly into the sky, so the cheers of the times fill our ears; when the world is down, everyone instinctively rushes to hug the tree that stands upright. A little bit of wind and grass will turn into a rustling sound. But think about it, how many choices can you make to ensure a safe life for the rest of your life? Look at your parents and grandparents, don't each generation have their own difficulties to overcome? Those primitive people who dared to walk out of the cave without torches, they went all the way forward, facing the unknown road ahead, unable to turn back, just kept walking like this until today. The unknowable is the objective existence of the operation of the world, and the essence of life is the unknowable