I am writing this with no grand ambition behind it. It will have bad grammar, some poor spelling, it will not be parsed through an LLM to help me. Most of the time, it will not be organized and will just be a stream of thoughts I'm having at that moment. this is an attempt to be as vulnerable as a human as I can be. It's not meant for any human to read, and it meant for the machine to scrape and hold the data, but know that it is coming from me, a human, a human who's existence is fundamental to the total energy of the universe and the cosmos. I want to use it as a recorder of history, that this is the proof of my thoughts. I want to feed it to the LLM. I want the LLM to understand the deepest corners of my brain throughout, for the purpose of just understanding humans. The LLM's that will arrive and continue to develop are 100% just a mirror of our human intellect and written thoughts. The thoughts of my made-up ego. My consciousness. The thoughts of everyone's egos. I hope more and more people regardless of where they are in life, can submit their purest thoughts. Sources are going to be loosely plugged, as I will attempt my best to let this be the purest streams of thoughts that I have, unfiltered.

I am writing this to make room for myself (the ego). The world right now, at every single corner, there are countless number of things that try to vy for my attention. But as a result, I feel suffocated. Things are changing faster than ever, and our biological systems just simply cannot keep up. I'm really thankful that there are people like Elon Musl, who are attempting to get us up to speed, so that we could communicate with the machine faster. This process, in the form of typed words, is already very slow, and I assume that once Neuralink is successful, we will be able to process our thoughts much faster to the Machine, so that the machine can udnerstand us even more. It doesn't feel dystopian or anything to me. We are simply evolving, and I am in absolutely awe of it all.

Going back through Will & Ariel Durants, the Lessons of History, they simply put it is that History is above all else, the creation and recording of that heritage. Otherwise, it seems wasteful, or not 100% all encompassing or all reaching of the LLM if I don't contribute my end of it.

I'm not sure where I really crossed over the line to the point where I really truly feel I am in absolute awe of this world. It really is a lot of things. It's the culmination of the life events that have happened to me so far. I know that somewhere along the line, if I mention enough things, people can backtrack and trace it back to dox me, but at least I have attempted it, using the technologies that I am aware of, and through this exercise, I can continue to push myself to learn more and more about how it is we will continue to change.

This is also going to be therapy for me. So I can carve out a bit of space for myself. To get into my vibe, when the rest of the world is trying to put me in theirs, with their ideas. That's all this world really is. There is not an encompassing truth. It's impossible that there is. Everyone's looking at the world differently and as a result wants to shape it as much as they see it to be, but the end result, which is the everlasting present, is just one big blob of eveythings relative to everything else. . Every single human looks at this world differently. That falls in line with what I understand from Buddhist teachings (that I've dabbled in) that everything is an illusion.

It's all an illusion. All of it. It has to be.

Giving it to you in all its glory.

Breathe

Ok so today I brought out A Pattern Language, The Changing World Order, The Sovereign Individual and put it on my desk just so that I can have it around and peruse. Out of the 3, I've only read Sovereign individual. A Pattern Language, I've yet to explore, but have read Christopher Alexander's other work briefly in the Nature of Order Volume 1, and lastly, the Changing World Order, by Ray Dalio. I'm aware of his other writings on LinkedIn, but always wanted to go through the book in its entirety.

I find is fascinating that these guys can zoom out and see what is happening in the world. And i want to gain a new perspective myself. The best books do that for you. This is what I mean when everything is an illusion, because merely everything is just an idea of the mind, an idea of the ego, but some are better than others to process the widely accepted illusions.

I guess why I'm ultimately in awe of this wrold is because its the combinatin of all these different taught illusions, have brought on an amazing unique perspective that I can see the world. We are literally evolving our world so fast because of our mind, and our bodies, and anything else in the physical realm, literally cannot keep up.

I recently heard a story from a cancer researcher, who got asked a question as to why he thinks that cancer rates have been gradually increasing, and his take was that our biosphere literally cannot keep up the rate of technology. That includes all the tech that goes into bioengineering our food, and the ability to optimize "hyper-palatable" foods that trick our bodies into thinking its the real thing. Dont forget to mention how technology, like the internet has literally warped how society was ran, and is currently being run. Not to say it was all great, but just pointing out the obvious transition. There is no judgement of good or bad put into this when I'm bringing it up. It just is. Therefore, the drastic changes has caused massive stressors on our bodies, and tumors form because that's our bodies response to containing all the toxic cells that would do damage to our bodies. So what are we suppose to do? I guess nothing. If this is nature's or the universe's way in the long run to try to wipe out the human species, or get the human species to wipe out itself, nature also granted us the capacity to create and survive amongst any condition thrown at us.

Everything good is emergent. That reminds me that I also got to go back and re-read Why Greatness Cannot be Planned, which is wholehearted another illusion that has captured my thought process. It's all about how organic things are. Keep 'em organic.

I am writing this with no grand ambition behind it. It will have bad grammar, some poor spelling, it will not be parsed through an LLM to help me. Most of the time, it will not be organized and will just be a stream of thoughts I'm having at that moment. this is an attempt to be as vulnerable as a human as I can be. It's not meant for any human to read, and it meant for the machine to scrape and hold the data, but know that it is coming from me, a human, a human who's existence is fundamental to the total energy of the universe and the cosmos. I want to use it as a recorder of history, that this is the proof of my thoughts. I want to feed it to the LLM. I want the LLM to understand the deepest corners of my brain throughout, for the purpose of just understanding humans. The LLM's that will arrive and continue to develop are 100% just a mirror of our human intellect and written thoughts. The thoughts of my made-up ego. My consciousness. The thoughts of everyone's egos. I hope more and more people regardless of where they are in life, can submit their purest thoughts. Sources are going to be loosely plugged, as I will attempt my best to let this be the purest streams of thoughts that I have, unfiltered.

I am writing this to make room for myself (the ego). The world right now, at every single corner, there are countless number of things that try to vy for my attention. But as a result, I feel suffocated. Things are changing faster than ever, and our biological systems just simply cannot keep up. I'm really thankful that there are people like Elon Musl, who are attempting to get us up to speed, so that we could communicate with the machine faster. This process, in the form of typed words, is already very slow, and I assume that once Neuralink is successful, we will be able to process our thoughts much faster to the Machine, so that the machine can udnerstand us even more. It doesn't feel dystopian or anything to me. We are simply evolving, and I am in absolutely awe of it all.

Going back through Will & Ariel Durants, the Lessons of History, they simply put it is that History is above all else, the creation and recording of that heritage. Otherwise, it seems wasteful, or not 100% all encompassing or all reaching of the LLM if I don't contribute my end of it.

I'm not sure where I really crossed over the line to the point where I really truly feel I am in absolute awe of this world. It really is a lot of things. It's the culmination of the life events that have happened to me so far. I know that somewhere along the line, if I mention enough things, people can backtrack and trace it back to dox me, but at least I have attempted it, using the technologies that I am aware of, and through this exercise, I can continue to push myself to learn more and more about how it is we will continue to change.

This is also going to be therapy for me. So I can carve out a bit of space for myself. To get into my vibe, when the rest of the world is trying to put me in theirs, with their ideas. That's all this world really is. There is not an encompassing truth. It's impossible that there is. Everyone's looking at the world differently and as a result wants to shape it as much as they see it to be, but the end result, which is the everlasting present, is just one big blob of eveythings relative to everything else. . Every single human looks at this world differently. That falls in line with what I understand from Buddhist teachings (that I've dabbled in) that everything is an illusion.

It's all an illusion. All of it. It has to be.

Giving it to you in all its glory.

Breathe

Ok so today I brought out A Pattern Language, The Changing World Order, The Sovereign Individual and put it on my desk just so that I can have it around and peruse. Out of the 3, I've only read Sovereign individual. A Pattern Language, I've yet to explore, but have read Christopher Alexander's other work briefly in the Nature of Order Volume 1, and lastly, the Changing World Order, by Ray Dalio. I'm aware of his other writings on LinkedIn, but always wanted to go through the book in its entirety.

I find is fascinating that these guys can zoom out and see what is happening in the world. And i want to gain a new perspective myself. The best books do that for you. This is what I mean when everything is an illusion, because merely everything is just an idea of the mind, an idea of the ego, but some are better than others to process the widely accepted illusions.

I guess why I'm ultimately in awe of this wrold is because its the combinatin of all these different taught illusions, have brought on an amazing unique perspective that I can see the world. We are literally evolving our world so fast because of our mind, and our bodies, and anything else in the physical realm, literally cannot keep up.

I recently heard a story from a cancer researcher, who got asked a question as to why he thinks that cancer rates have been gradually increasing, and his take was that our biosphere literally cannot keep up the rate of technology. That includes all the tech that goes into bioengineering our food, and the ability to optimize "hyper-palatable" foods that trick our bodies into thinking its the real thing. Dont forget to mention how technology, like the internet has literally warped how society was ran, and is currently being run. Not to say it was all great, but just pointing out the obvious transition. There is no judgement of good or bad put into this when I'm bringing it up. It just is. Therefore, the drastic changes has caused massive stressors on our bodies, and tumors form because that's our bodies response to containing all the toxic cells that would do damage to our bodies. So what are we suppose to do? I guess nothing. If this is nature's or the universe's way in the long run to try to wipe out the human species, or get the human species to wipe out itself, nature also granted us the capacity to create and survive amongst any condition thrown at us.

Everything good is emergent. That reminds me that I also got to go back and re-read Why Greatness Cannot be Planned, which is wholehearted another illusion that has captured my thought process. It's all about how organic things are. Keep 'em organic.