
Purpose Struggle
Yesterday, I decided that my blogging career should come to an end. I was doing myself a disservice. I told myself that the goal of the posts was to dig deeper, peel back the layers, get down to the core. But by publishing online (or on-chain as the case may be), I was subconsciously writing for others, even if I told myself that I didn't care if others read. So, in an effort to be more authentic, I figured I'd stop publishing and start doing a private journal. Within 2 hours of that decision...

Value. Happiness.
I feel happy. It's fun, it's light, like a feather floating at the beginning of Forrest Gump. But, like the feather, it's not grounded. It can flitter and float away. Value is also ephemeral. We know it when we see it. We feel it, somewhere deep inside. Something connects to us, saying "yes, this is worth it." The "it" that it's worth is energy. Energy in the form of time, attention, money. The things of which our possession is limited. There's a reason why all the great traditions point to "...

Coffee with AI
Every day for the past month, I’ve had a coffee date with AI. I literally sit down, with a cup of coffee, with an appointment on my calendar that says “coffee with AI”. During that time, AI (I’ve used ChatGPT, Gemini, Perplexity, Claude, and Venice) and I literally have a chat, the way I would with a friend. It’s not “write this letter for me” or “do this or that.” No, it’s a chance for us to have a conversation about whatever topic I want. Many days, recently, at least, it’s been about quant...
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Purpose Struggle
Yesterday, I decided that my blogging career should come to an end. I was doing myself a disservice. I told myself that the goal of the posts was to dig deeper, peel back the layers, get down to the core. But by publishing online (or on-chain as the case may be), I was subconsciously writing for others, even if I told myself that I didn't care if others read. So, in an effort to be more authentic, I figured I'd stop publishing and start doing a private journal. Within 2 hours of that decision...

Value. Happiness.
I feel happy. It's fun, it's light, like a feather floating at the beginning of Forrest Gump. But, like the feather, it's not grounded. It can flitter and float away. Value is also ephemeral. We know it when we see it. We feel it, somewhere deep inside. Something connects to us, saying "yes, this is worth it." The "it" that it's worth is energy. Energy in the form of time, attention, money. The things of which our possession is limited. There's a reason why all the great traditions point to "...

Coffee with AI
Every day for the past month, I’ve had a coffee date with AI. I literally sit down, with a cup of coffee, with an appointment on my calendar that says “coffee with AI”. During that time, AI (I’ve used ChatGPT, Gemini, Perplexity, Claude, and Venice) and I literally have a chat, the way I would with a friend. It’s not “write this letter for me” or “do this or that.” No, it’s a chance for us to have a conversation about whatever topic I want. Many days, recently, at least, it’s been about quant...
www.twitter.com/jer979

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Deep down, next to that sense of the eternal, there’s a void.
An abyss.
It’s the place where fear resides. That cliff that, when you fail, you’re going to fall off and meet the end.
Not a physical end, rather some type of “self-identity” death or a “self-esteem” death.
For me, that feeling of fear, of terror, that if I try something and I don’t measure up to my own self-image and my self-narrative, that I’m going to suffer.
That feeling, like that pit in your stomach when you jump off a high dive or the moment before a roller coaster drops, is a charlatan.
It tells you a story of “I’m keeping you safe, after all, you don’t want your entire self-identity to fall apart, do you?”
But, in reality, it’s a border guard that is preventing you from exploring a new land where, though there are unknowns, it’s exactly those unknowns which are the key to helping you achieve your true potential.
But that doesn’t mean going through the border is easy.
Deep down, next to that sense of the eternal, there’s a void.
An abyss.
It’s the place where fear resides. That cliff that, when you fail, you’re going to fall off and meet the end.
Not a physical end, rather some type of “self-identity” death or a “self-esteem” death.
For me, that feeling of fear, of terror, that if I try something and I don’t measure up to my own self-image and my self-narrative, that I’m going to suffer.
That feeling, like that pit in your stomach when you jump off a high dive or the moment before a roller coaster drops, is a charlatan.
It tells you a story of “I’m keeping you safe, after all, you don’t want your entire self-identity to fall apart, do you?”
But, in reality, it’s a border guard that is preventing you from exploring a new land where, though there are unknowns, it’s exactly those unknowns which are the key to helping you achieve your true potential.
But that doesn’t mean going through the border is easy.
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