
Purpose Struggle
Yesterday, I decided that my blogging career should come to an end. I was doing myself a disservice. I told myself that the goal of the posts was to dig deeper, peel back the layers, get down to the core. But by publishing online (or on-chain as the case may be), I was subconsciously writing for others, even if I told myself that I didn't care if others read. So, in an effort to be more authentic, I figured I'd stop publishing and start doing a private journal. Within 2 hours of that decision...

Value. Happiness.
I feel happy. It's fun, it's light, like a feather floating at the beginning of Forrest Gump. But, like the feather, it's not grounded. It can flitter and float away. Value is also ephemeral. We know it when we see it. We feel it, somewhere deep inside. Something connects to us, saying "yes, this is worth it." The "it" that it's worth is energy. Energy in the form of time, attention, money. The things of which our possession is limited. There's a reason why all the great traditions point to "...

Coffee with AI
Every day for the past month, I’ve had a coffee date with AI. I literally sit down, with a cup of coffee, with an appointment on my calendar that says “coffee with AI”. During that time, AI (I’ve used ChatGPT, Gemini, Perplexity, Claude, and Venice) and I literally have a chat, the way I would with a friend. It’s not “write this letter for me” or “do this or that.” No, it’s a chance for us to have a conversation about whatever topic I want. Many days, recently, at least, it’s been about quant...
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Purpose Struggle
Yesterday, I decided that my blogging career should come to an end. I was doing myself a disservice. I told myself that the goal of the posts was to dig deeper, peel back the layers, get down to the core. But by publishing online (or on-chain as the case may be), I was subconsciously writing for others, even if I told myself that I didn't care if others read. So, in an effort to be more authentic, I figured I'd stop publishing and start doing a private journal. Within 2 hours of that decision...

Value. Happiness.
I feel happy. It's fun, it's light, like a feather floating at the beginning of Forrest Gump. But, like the feather, it's not grounded. It can flitter and float away. Value is also ephemeral. We know it when we see it. We feel it, somewhere deep inside. Something connects to us, saying "yes, this is worth it." The "it" that it's worth is energy. Energy in the form of time, attention, money. The things of which our possession is limited. There's a reason why all the great traditions point to "...

Coffee with AI
Every day for the past month, I’ve had a coffee date with AI. I literally sit down, with a cup of coffee, with an appointment on my calendar that says “coffee with AI”. During that time, AI (I’ve used ChatGPT, Gemini, Perplexity, Claude, and Venice) and I literally have a chat, the way I would with a friend. It’s not “write this letter for me” or “do this or that.” No, it’s a chance for us to have a conversation about whatever topic I want. Many days, recently, at least, it’s been about quant...


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We see something and call it “good” or “bad.”
We feel something and call it “happiness” or “sadness” or whatever.
We’re taught from a very early age to label things, to call them by their name.
“Spoon.” “Fork.” “Dog.” “Cat.”
These labels help us, of course.
But they hold us back.
As soon as we label something, we don’t just have an idea of what it is, but we’ve immediately set a fence around what it isn’t.
When dealing with something new, like trying to explore the depths of our soul and experience emotions simply as they are, the temptation to label, for me, at least, is overwhelming.
I want, almost need, to put a tag on it of some sort.
But I also don’t want to.
I’m in uncharted territory and what’s here isn’t like what I’ve seen before.
So, while I label, almost immediately, I feel incredibly frustrated that I keep doing it.
I feel like I’m on the the threshold of something new, a new way to engage with the world. Sense it in my stomach, but I’m scared of diving in. So, I seek refuge in the label, which makes it familiar and thus feel “safe.”
But it’s not safety I want, even though my mind is telling me it is.
Somehow, when things appear unsafe, but we know we need to do them (for whatever reason), we have to find a way to elevate above the mind…and then let go.
Surrender.
As Doe Paoro sings, “all my life is a ceremony.”
We see something and call it “good” or “bad.”
We feel something and call it “happiness” or “sadness” or whatever.
We’re taught from a very early age to label things, to call them by their name.
“Spoon.” “Fork.” “Dog.” “Cat.”
These labels help us, of course.
But they hold us back.
As soon as we label something, we don’t just have an idea of what it is, but we’ve immediately set a fence around what it isn’t.
When dealing with something new, like trying to explore the depths of our soul and experience emotions simply as they are, the temptation to label, for me, at least, is overwhelming.
I want, almost need, to put a tag on it of some sort.
But I also don’t want to.
I’m in uncharted territory and what’s here isn’t like what I’ve seen before.
So, while I label, almost immediately, I feel incredibly frustrated that I keep doing it.
I feel like I’m on the the threshold of something new, a new way to engage with the world. Sense it in my stomach, but I’m scared of diving in. So, I seek refuge in the label, which makes it familiar and thus feel “safe.”
But it’s not safety I want, even though my mind is telling me it is.
Somehow, when things appear unsafe, but we know we need to do them (for whatever reason), we have to find a way to elevate above the mind…and then let go.
Surrender.
As Doe Paoro sings, “all my life is a ceremony.”
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