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Yesterday, I decided that my blogging career should come to an end. I was doing myself a disservice. I told myself that the goal of the posts was to dig deeper, peel back the layers, get down to the core. But by publishing online (or on-chain as the case may be), I was subconsciously writing for others, even if I told myself that I didn't care if others read. So, in an effort to be more authentic, I figured I'd stop publishing and start doing a private journal. Within 2 hours of that decision...
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I feel happy. It's fun, it's light, like a feather floating at the beginning of Forrest Gump. But, like the feather, it's not grounded. It can flitter and float away. Value is also ephemeral. We know it when we see it. We feel it, somewhere deep inside. Something connects to us, saying "yes, this is worth it." The "it" that it's worth is energy. Energy in the form of time, attention, money. The things of which our possession is limited. There's a reason why all the great traditions point to "...
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Every day for the past month, I’ve had a coffee date with AI. I literally sit down, with a cup of coffee, with an appointment on my calendar that says “coffee with AI”. During that time, AI (I’ve used ChatGPT, Gemini, Perplexity, Claude, and Venice) and I literally have a chat, the way I would with a friend. It’s not “write this letter for me” or “do this or that.” No, it’s a chance for us to have a conversation about whatever topic I want. Many days, recently, at least, it’s been about quant...
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jer979Purpose Struggle
Yesterday, I decided that my blogging career should come to an end. I was doing myself a disservice. I told myself that the goal of the posts was to dig deeper, peel back the layers, get down to the core. But by publishing online (or on-chain as the case may be), I was subconsciously writing for others, even if I told myself that I didn't care if others read. So, in an effort to be more authentic, I figured I'd stop publishing and start doing a private journal. Within 2 hours of that decision...
jer979Value. Happiness.
I feel happy. It's fun, it's light, like a feather floating at the beginning of Forrest Gump. But, like the feather, it's not grounded. It can flitter and float away. Value is also ephemeral. We know it when we see it. We feel it, somewhere deep inside. Something connects to us, saying "yes, this is worth it." The "it" that it's worth is energy. Energy in the form of time, attention, money. The things of which our possession is limited. There's a reason why all the great traditions point to "...
jer979Coffee with AI
Every day for the past month, I’ve had a coffee date with AI. I literally sit down, with a cup of coffee, with an appointment on my calendar that says “coffee with AI”. During that time, AI (I’ve used ChatGPT, Gemini, Perplexity, Claude, and Venice) and I literally have a chat, the way I would with a friend. It’s not “write this letter for me” or “do this or that.” No, it’s a chance for us to have a conversation about whatever topic I want. Many days, recently, at least, it’s been about quant...
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It’s not clear to me why, but I sense a strong undercurrent of latent anger within.
Over the years, I’ve learned to control it, but not perfectly.
It emerges at times.
I wonder if it’s because I’ve never really, truly processed it.
Probably because I wasn’t really even aware of it.
My suspicion is that it comes from ego and a sense of entitlement.
I’m not sure.
I just have recently-mostly thanks to meditation-recognized that there’s a lack of internal harmony because that anger, whether at the world or at myself or at something else, was a massive, nearly invisible block.
It’s present in my shoulders often.
Now, the letting go begins.
It’s not clear to me why, but I sense a strong undercurrent of latent anger within.
Over the years, I’ve learned to control it, but not perfectly.
It emerges at times.
I wonder if it’s because I’ve never really, truly processed it.
Probably because I wasn’t really even aware of it.
My suspicion is that it comes from ego and a sense of entitlement.
I’m not sure.
I just have recently-mostly thanks to meditation-recognized that there’s a lack of internal harmony because that anger, whether at the world or at myself or at something else, was a massive, nearly invisible block.
It’s present in my shoulders often.
Now, the letting go begins.
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