
Purpose Struggle
Yesterday, I decided that my blogging career should come to an end. I was doing myself a disservice. I told myself that the goal of the posts was to dig deeper, peel back the layers, get down to the core. But by publishing online (or on-chain as the case may be), I was subconsciously writing for others, even if I told myself that I didn't care if others read. So, in an effort to be more authentic, I figured I'd stop publishing and start doing a private journal. Within 2 hours of that decision...

Value. Happiness.
I feel happy. It's fun, it's light, like a feather floating at the beginning of Forrest Gump. But, like the feather, it's not grounded. It can flitter and float away. Value is also ephemeral. We know it when we see it. We feel it, somewhere deep inside. Something connects to us, saying "yes, this is worth it." The "it" that it's worth is energy. Energy in the form of time, attention, money. The things of which our possession is limited. There's a reason why all the great traditions point to "...

Coffee with AI
Every day for the past month, I’ve had a coffee date with AI. I literally sit down, with a cup of coffee, with an appointment on my calendar that says “coffee with AI”. During that time, AI (I’ve used ChatGPT, Gemini, Perplexity, Claude, and Venice) and I literally have a chat, the way I would with a friend. It’s not “write this letter for me” or “do this or that.” No, it’s a chance for us to have a conversation about whatever topic I want. Many days, recently, at least, it’s been about quant...
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Purpose Struggle
Yesterday, I decided that my blogging career should come to an end. I was doing myself a disservice. I told myself that the goal of the posts was to dig deeper, peel back the layers, get down to the core. But by publishing online (or on-chain as the case may be), I was subconsciously writing for others, even if I told myself that I didn't care if others read. So, in an effort to be more authentic, I figured I'd stop publishing and start doing a private journal. Within 2 hours of that decision...

Value. Happiness.
I feel happy. It's fun, it's light, like a feather floating at the beginning of Forrest Gump. But, like the feather, it's not grounded. It can flitter and float away. Value is also ephemeral. We know it when we see it. We feel it, somewhere deep inside. Something connects to us, saying "yes, this is worth it." The "it" that it's worth is energy. Energy in the form of time, attention, money. The things of which our possession is limited. There's a reason why all the great traditions point to "...

Coffee with AI
Every day for the past month, I’ve had a coffee date with AI. I literally sit down, with a cup of coffee, with an appointment on my calendar that says “coffee with AI”. During that time, AI (I’ve used ChatGPT, Gemini, Perplexity, Claude, and Venice) and I literally have a chat, the way I would with a friend. It’s not “write this letter for me” or “do this or that.” No, it’s a chance for us to have a conversation about whatever topic I want. Many days, recently, at least, it’s been about quant...


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A friend asked, “if you are able to remove all the concrete layers that form your identity, well, then, who are you?”
I’ve been feeling the weight of this question, mostly in my shoulders, where (I sense) the weight of the idea of “identity” sits for me primarily.
All of the answers to “I’m the type of guy who does X” seem to reside there.
But, then I contemplated the ideas of “what if there is no spoon?”
“What if there is no mountain?”
“What if there is no self?”
At first glance, that’s ridiculous. The spoon is there. The mountain is there.
But when you realize that all of your experience is shaped by your perception which is shaped by words and concepts to help you make sense of the world, then you begin to come to terms with the notion that, while they do that, they also separate you from the world.
My yoga teacher said the other day, “you don’t go out into nature. You are part of nature.”
You and I are connected to the spoon through the fabric of the universe. We’re connected to the mountain. By naming them “mountain” or “spoon” or “self,” there’s an artificial dividing line that is being placed among things that are, in fact, whole. All is one.
Or as Jews say, “G-d is one.”
The Taoists call it “the Tao.”
So, if not a “self,” then what?
A manifestation of universal energy. Nature takes many different forms. Some we call “trees.” Some we call “lakes.” Some we call “selves.”
The opportunity is to not only sense the interconnectedness of all things, but to feel the interconnectedness of all things.
To allow for the energy of everything that surrounds us (in full 720 degrees) to be harmonant (if that’s a word) with the manifestation of natural energy that is you.
As Rumi says, “you are the drop, but you are also the ocean.”
A friend asked, “if you are able to remove all the concrete layers that form your identity, well, then, who are you?”
I’ve been feeling the weight of this question, mostly in my shoulders, where (I sense) the weight of the idea of “identity” sits for me primarily.
All of the answers to “I’m the type of guy who does X” seem to reside there.
But, then I contemplated the ideas of “what if there is no spoon?”
“What if there is no mountain?”
“What if there is no self?”
At first glance, that’s ridiculous. The spoon is there. The mountain is there.
But when you realize that all of your experience is shaped by your perception which is shaped by words and concepts to help you make sense of the world, then you begin to come to terms with the notion that, while they do that, they also separate you from the world.
My yoga teacher said the other day, “you don’t go out into nature. You are part of nature.”
You and I are connected to the spoon through the fabric of the universe. We’re connected to the mountain. By naming them “mountain” or “spoon” or “self,” there’s an artificial dividing line that is being placed among things that are, in fact, whole. All is one.
Or as Jews say, “G-d is one.”
The Taoists call it “the Tao.”
So, if not a “self,” then what?
A manifestation of universal energy. Nature takes many different forms. Some we call “trees.” Some we call “lakes.” Some we call “selves.”
The opportunity is to not only sense the interconnectedness of all things, but to feel the interconnectedness of all things.
To allow for the energy of everything that surrounds us (in full 720 degrees) to be harmonant (if that’s a word) with the manifestation of natural energy that is you.
As Rumi says, “you are the drop, but you are also the ocean.”
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