it's christmas eve & it's also mamalicious' birthday!

today's really hard. it's her 1st birthday w/out her being here & it's also our 1st holiday season w/out her.

i knew this year would be a hard year but i didn't know how hard. all these 1sts suck & i can't see how the 2nd, 3rd, 4th & so on are gonna feel any better.

my birthday is usually the unofficial start of the holiday season, for me anyway. but here we are post birthday & i just ain't ready to face the reality that mamalicious isn't goin' to be here this holiday season.

they say the year of 1sts is the hardest. i hope that's true. i hope it gets easier w/time even if it never fully goes away.

it's christmas eve & it's also mamalicious' birthday!

today's really hard. it's her 1st birthday w/out her being here & it's also our 1st holiday season w/out her.

i knew this year would be a hard year but i didn't know how hard. all these 1sts suck & i can't see how the 2nd, 3rd, 4th & so on are gonna feel any better.

my birthday is usually the unofficial start of the holiday season, for me anyway. but here we are post birthday & i just ain't ready to face the reality that mamalicious isn't goin' to be here this holiday season.

they say the year of 1sts is the hardest. i hope that's true. i hope it gets easier w/time even if it never fully goes away.