I wonder if I will die before I get to live

I wonder if there's someone permission out there that I need before I can truly take my first breath

I wonder if all these holding in and fears isn't robbing me of my best life 

I wonder if at the end of my existence there won't be a big shit pile of regrets

I wonder if I've not gotten used to too much pain that the glimpse of happiness feels like a threat to even my imagination

I wonder if you know me at all

I wonder, truly, if you would remember me fondly when I go

I just wonder, that seems to be the best I can do lately…

I wonder if I will die before I get to live

I wonder if there's someone permission out there that I need before I can truly take my first breath

I wonder if all these holding in and fears isn't robbing me of my best life 

I wonder if at the end of my existence there won't be a big shit pile of regrets

I wonder if I've not gotten used to too much pain that the glimpse of happiness feels like a threat to even my imagination

I wonder if you know me at all

I wonder, truly, if you would remember me fondly when I go

I just wonder, that seems to be the best I can do lately…