ADSeptember 15th, 2022 “Ginny”
a girl crying to a woman, fancy industrial style office, photo realistic, interior design shot, very high detailed, cinematic lightingToday one of the designers reached out and wanted to talk to me, I immediately felt it must be something bad, and I was right. She complains about another team member, let’s call her Ginny. Yeah it’s Ginny again, everyone knows about her, every company has a Ginny. So Ginny’s not supporting her work and arbitrarily decided to cancel her project. While I feel it...
ADAugust 31st, 2022 “Semi-Holiday”
Interior of a fancy office, industrial style, a girl sitting at a corner, laptop, stationary, very high detailed, cinematic lighting, hyperrealistic, 8kDespite the unwillingness I worked 12 hours. Cancelled my yoga class and eye doctor appointment. I thought I’m taking care of myself, but I just can’t stand seeing my tasks piling up and overdue. Should I have a “Semi-Holiday”? Recently my genius colleague invented a “semi holiday” thingy. She’s travelling to Europe and claims she will work re...
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Traveled home today. After a few days of semi holiday - can’t say it’s really one as it was to attend an event - I feel better. This proves it’s crucial for hard workers to cut off from work once for a while.
After arrival I start cleaning. With funky music, I spend time taking care of every corner of the living room, putting things back where they are supposed to be, doing laundry, taking out of trash. I finally treat myself seriously enough, work hard like it’s a real job.
I’m still not energized like before, hasn’t found my passion back. I learnt a word the other day: quiet quitting. It’s when you only do the minimum at work and don’t bother to change or hustle anymore. I’ve been like like this since I started this diary.
For me it’s like a silent protest of not being valued and losing the feeling of achievement. Tho I think I still work harder than others but I’m definitely less productive than before.
Maybe it’s for me to find the balance. I took it too serious at work and even in sleep I think about it. I’ve been careless of myself, my body, my hobby, and my soul. When I’m taking enough of break from the quiet quitting, I might be able to find the passion back.
Don’t get me wrong, I think it’s a healthy thing, it can be passive but it’s inevitable. It’s not like I didn’t communicate with my manager about my frustrations, it’s just that even him is powerless for some matters and I don’t blame him, well, deep down I don’t.
Tomorrow is a new day, it’s the 23rd day of my quiet quitting, let’s see how many more I will need.
