Today after a meeting my manager want to chat with me. We have a relatively long conversation. He thinks I’m doing a good job on product design, but my domain knowledge can be improved. We are a DeFi project, but I don’t know enough of technical or financial stuff, which might make other colleagues in the meeting not worship me enough to respect my suggestions. Hello? I understand I’m not an expert, but before becoming a designer, I was a frontend developer, I might not know enough of blockch...

Today after a meeting my manager want to chat with me. We have a relatively long conversation. He thinks I’m doing a good job on product design, but my domain knowledge can be improved. We are a DeFi project, but I don’t know enough of technical or financial stuff, which might make other colleagues in the meeting not worship me enough to respect my suggestions. Hello? I understand I’m not an expert, but before becoming a designer, I was a frontend developer, I might not know enough of blockch...

Had a drink and lying down on the couch. I look outside from the window and I see the street, buildings, trees and lights. But not all. I only see part of the street, my side of the buildings, some branches of the trees, a portion of lights. If I look harder, I feel the world is rendering the images for me to see. Like, it was a plain gray behind the building, and when I stretch out my neck, inch by inch I feel the world is computing hard to show me what's behind the building. I know it&...

Had a drink and lying down on the couch. I look outside from the window and I see the street, buildings, trees and lights. But not all. I only see part of the street, my side of the buildings, some branches of the trees, a portion of lights. If I look harder, I feel the world is rendering the images for me to see. Like, it was a plain gray behind the building, and when I stretch out my neck, inch by inch I feel the world is computing hard to show me what's behind the building. I know it&...

Today I had two interviews with web3 companies. The first one is a very well-known project. The manager showed me their beautiful office on a high level of a building with a big city view. There is a coffee stand, casual spaces, couch, snack bar and all that. But when I enter the work area, I see desks lining up close to each other as if they try their best to save space, while the entrance and the public space is huge. The work didn't sound exciting. The manager himself looked burnt-out...

Today I had two interviews with web3 companies. The first one is a very well-known project. The manager showed me their beautiful office on a high level of a building with a big city view. There is a coffee stand, casual spaces, couch, snack bar and all that. But when I enter the work area, I see desks lining up close to each other as if they try their best to save space, while the entrance and the public space is huge. The work didn't sound exciting. The manager himself looked burnt-out...

Today I had an in-depth talk with a friend working in NFT field. We are both fed up with the web3 founders who think internal management and communication are not important. For example, his boss tweeted something like “We need performance, not communication. If you can’t get what I want, I’m gonna have to ask you to leave.” just because some of the employees complain about not getting enough directions. Same here. Recently I proposed a 4 days work week idea to my boss as I feel taking 2 days...

Today I had an in-depth talk with a friend working in NFT field. We are both fed up with the web3 founders who think internal management and communication are not important. For example, his boss tweeted something like “We need performance, not communication. If you can’t get what I want, I’m gonna have to ask you to leave.” just because some of the employees complain about not getting enough directions. Same here. Recently I proposed a 4 days work week idea to my boss as I feel taking 2 days...

2 girls kissing in bed, morning light from the window, morning, happy and peaceful, messy notebooks on the floorFinally it's Saturday. I wake up with my gal pal Peggy, we chat and have sex until 1pm. I intend to clean up my life from the overflowing work and today I happened to have the mood to do it. I started by reorganizing my treasure box, it's an antique chest where I put all of my old stuff like my diaries, love letters, postcards, and my original poetry and comics. I read one...

2 girls kissing in bed, morning light from the window, morning, happy and peaceful, messy notebooks on the floorFinally it's Saturday. I wake up with my gal pal Peggy, we chat and have sex until 1pm. I intend to clean up my life from the overflowing work and today I happened to have the mood to do it. I started by reorganizing my treasure box, it's an antique chest where I put all of my old stuff like my diaries, love letters, postcards, and my original poetry and comics. I read one...

Today I had a gig in a cafe. It’s one of my side hustles (?). I remember when I first got on stage singing in 6th grade, all the classmates were all surprised and praising me, which make me think I must be good at it. So I started to yearn for more of this - singing, writing songs, playing guitar. Felt like this is the only way I can express myself - because obviously talking is too hard for me. Time passes by now I’m singing in a cafe where most of the strangers don’t really care if I sing g...

Today I had a gig in a cafe. It’s one of my side hustles (?). I remember when I first got on stage singing in 6th grade, all the classmates were all surprised and praising me, which make me think I must be good at it. So I started to yearn for more of this - singing, writing songs, playing guitar. Felt like this is the only way I can express myself - because obviously talking is too hard for me. Time passes by now I’m singing in a cafe where most of the strangers don’t really care if I sing g...

Today I work from home and join a meeting at 9am about a potential exploit in the project. I get up 10 mins before the call. With 5 hours of sleep, I can hardly think. However, I have the fear if I don’t speak up, they will remove me from the meeting next time thinking I’m not contributing. In this company there’s a really blur line of responsibilities and authority. You can easily get ride of a responsibility while it’s the same for losing the authority. I’m not good at getting away from res...

Today I work from home and join a meeting at 9am about a potential exploit in the project. I get up 10 mins before the call. With 5 hours of sleep, I can hardly think. However, I have the fear if I don’t speak up, they will remove me from the meeting next time thinking I’m not contributing. In this company there’s a really blur line of responsibilities and authority. You can easily get ride of a responsibility while it’s the same for losing the authority. I’m not good at getting away from res...

Today I woke up at 9:15am with 6 hours of sleep. I rush to the office and start the first meeting at 10am. Now let me work you through my itinerary and you will get an idea of how I get burnt out.10am - OKR Check-In It's a weekly company meeting where we share everyone's work status with an OKR chart. 11am - Sprint Review We run scrum, as a product designer I have to join it and demonstrate my work from the last 2 weeks. 1:30pm - HR Meeting Talk to HR about why so many people are bu...

Today I woke up at 9:15am with 6 hours of sleep. I rush to the office and start the first meeting at 10am. Now let me work you through my itinerary and you will get an idea of how I get burnt out.10am - OKR Check-In It's a weekly company meeting where we share everyone's work status with an OKR chart. 11am - Sprint Review We run scrum, as a product designer I have to join it and demonstrate my work from the last 2 weeks. 1:30pm - HR Meeting Talk to HR about why so many people are bu...