Clouds are covered by the ceiling of the lobby. One can only imagine the colour of the sky.

For the first time after several months, Fred was back in the Lobby. He checked all the messages he got over the time. Between advertisements for the new, high-end capsules, gimmicks and skills, he sees a message from his partner. It is a few weeks old. He reads it, and understands what she wants to tell him.
She needs separation, more than they planned and tried. She needs something else right now. She needs to be with herself to find herself again. He understands. And even though he feels sadness in his heart, he feels the same way like her. He knows it is the right way.

Since they entered this spiritship, they have experienced adventures, dreamt, made the impossible possible, discovered parts of themselves that were previously unknown to them. Nevertheless, they spent every free minute together. As a result, they lost more and more of themselves. It was a paradox: while they were together, they found something new & lost something familiar. Now, he can not recognize himself anymore. His actions, words & thoughts don't reflect his true nature anymore. He became inauthentic & confused. Who is he anymore? Why is he? Is he still the same person? How much did he change? What is real? What is his pursuit of Life? Where is his purpose? Where his uniqueness?

"I think, that is why I went into this adventure with Bodhilama. To find myself again. And in order to do that, I needed to forget myself. Still, Bodhilama is not over yet. I have to go deeper there. I feel there are things to uncover. The journey just started."

Definitely his mindset has changed & evolved over time, but he became more & more distant from his true nature, whatever that is. The alignment to his core is so much out of order, he needs to reassess, realign, come back to the centre of his being. He is grateful for his partner, the time & space they shared together and the message from her. Her text helps him to get back on track. Back to focus on the things which matter the most. A feeling of confidence and courage starts spreading in his chest. Suddenly he feels so much power in himself. So much energy to pull out trees just to plant them back again.

"What I need now is solitude. There is so much to reflect & integrate on. It is so much, that my head feels full, stuck, nothing can move. I am not able to be the leader I dream of, because I only created more and more memories, travelled many times without taking the time to ground myself. And I became co-dependent, forgetting myself. I need to remember again. What does it mean to be alive?

And than there is Bodhilama. An own journey in it self. These Officials are really cracking my bones. They make it very challenging to find myself again, but I guess that is part of the process. Without a challenge, there is no growth!"

He goes through the rest of the messages and the most recent one is an Ad for an upcoming Vipassana retreat.

"It starts tomorrow! What a coincidence! I still have some tickets left."

Immediately, he applies for the course. Two minutes later a auto-generated Confirmation Mail drops into his inbox, saying that he has to leave all belongings & distractions behind. Just his mind, body and soul are welcomed.

"Nice! Just sitting, meditating & eating. That sounds amazing!
Exactly what I need.
No Officials, No Bodhilama, No Dependency, No flower Market, No writing, No nothing!"

Fred closes his eyes and takes a deep breath in. So much stress & discomfort just drops from his shoulders. A feeling of peace, ease & relaxation spreads trough his body. Ten kgs lighter, he starts unwrapping all of his gimmicks, skills & gadgets. At the end only some clothes & his medicine left.

Fred
separates.

Bodhilama
integrates.

These are the Letters of Bodhilama, a guy who lives in a time of transformation.
A guy who felt the urge to write, because nothing else made any sense.
A guy who is a student, teacher & creator of (wild)Planet108.
A solar punk finding his way on the game's journey of life.
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