Day 2

"What am I doing here?"

"It is the same old stuff just with a new cover."

Fred takes a break from sitting in the hall and goes for a walk

"Old systems, so strict, so old-fashioned. Where is the evolution?
Don't be outside of the box, and they will silence you.
They say your mind is in the way. But who are they to say that?"

And, with a slight gesture, shows Fred the way back to the meditation hall.

"No, I need some more time walking."

"Only five minutes out, Sir! It is not allowed to go longer."

"I can not concentrate if my body is crying for moving.
I walk a bit more and meditate."

"One has to sit to uncover the truth of Buddha!"

"I am not Buddha and Buddha is not me."

"Sir, if you are walking so long, other people will follow you."

"So what?"

"Sir, please go back to the hall."

Fred stands still for a minute and decides not to engage.

"Okay."

The sun is going down. Fred lays in his bed. Birds are singing, the toilet flush flushes.

"Roxy!"

"Hey Fred, how yah doing?"

"What was I thinking attending this retreat?"

"You were not thinking so much.
You needed a break from everything.
Since it just dropped in you inbox you felt the calling.
Why you asking? Don't like it anymore?"

"It is so strict. We are not allowed to move or to write!
Everything is prohibited. I enjoy it.
Just sitting straight everyday and meditate.
I get a lot of clarity. Yet, something feels so off here."

"Well, what you are experiencing is the resistance of your mind.
Vipassana is designed to break trough your habitual patterns.
Your mind is craving some distraction right now."

"Yah, I got that. I can cope with that.
But these teachers here are so serious. They look so serious.
Why are they not able to be happy, while they are meditating the whole day?"

"Fred, that is a very profound question.
Well meditation alone doesn't make you a 'better' human being.
There are monks who meditate for decades but still struggle with their shadows.
There are people who never meditate, yet embody wisdom and love naturally.
Meditation alone is not enough."

"So what is needed to become my higher authentic self?"

"Well first, you are already it. You just have to remember.
To remember there is Awareness, Integration & Embodiment.
It is not only about sitting in silence for hours.
It is about reflecting on your insights & experiences.
And bring these new insights into action."

"Okay, yeah I am missing some embodiment.
Do you have a suggestion what I can do, to make it more fun here?"

"Well, that would mean you are not following the system.
You will not experience the depth which Vipassana is giving you.
They will not like it.
Just to make sure you know what you are doing.
Do you want to continue?"

"Yes, I am sure. Let us do it."

"Okay, Fred, than let us add some spice to the sauce!
I would recommend a bold move."

"A bold move?"

"Yes, something which is outside of the box.
Something which reflects your realization and directly implement it into reality.
Something which extends your comfort zone."

"Okay, let the fun begin!"

The bell rings.

Fred
meditates.

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