I have been devastated since Friday about the fact that my passion must either be commercialised using a sustainable model or must be assisted with a stable source of income.

“How did you not know this and how have you lasted this long?” You may ask.

Well, in March 2025, I made the silly decision of having Farcaster’s weekly reward as my major source of income. Crazy, I know. It worked because the USD is stronger than the NGN by a margin of 1:1500. My standard of living increased because of the rewards, I tell you.

"What changed?" You may ask again. The Farcaster algorithm, my move to an expensive city (Lagos) and some parts of my frontal lobe.

I earned $10 on the last FC rewards payout day. I was surprised because I haven’t earned that in a long time. I waved it off as a consequence of my laissez-fair attitude that week in regards to posting on FC. I resolved to get more involved the following week. As soon as the timer for the following week started, I picked up my phone and willed myself to post something interesting but I came up with nothing.

I dropped my phone out of frustration, looked at the ceiling and asked myself if that was how I wanted to live for the rest of my life. I eventually came up with some good post ideas and by Friday morning, I was feeling good until I decided to check my score on the leaderboard, iykyk.

With that, my mood dropped to the bottom of the mood scale. The bottom being a myriad of negative emotions — anger, depression, anxiety, fear. I was thinking of how I will have to go back to the job market and going back to the job market means that I have to build a brand to show proof of knowledge, experience and humanity. Going back means multiple job applications and hoping and waiting. Going back means I made a silly and childish decision to focus on my passion. I think that’s what annoys me the most; the fact that I’m still making silly decisions regarding my career path even as a 25-year-old.

Anyways, I’m done crashing out. I have learnt my lesson for the 100th time. I have returned to the job market and I’m ready to do what it takes to be the best community manager. I chose community management because I admire healthy communities. Community building done right is always a beautiful sight to behold. Case in point is Los Fomos on Farcaster. I love what they have built for themselves over the years.

To the neurodivergent people like me who want to just focus on their passions and don’t have rich parents who can finance them, my advice to you is to grow your finances first or side by side your passion (if you can multitask). Your passions won’t leave you. They have been given to you and will never leave you. You can do them during the weekends or at night. Your passion needs you to be healthy, at peace, not antsy, grounded.

Nevertheless, I am grateful for how my life has been so far. At the same time, I have to get serious and accept responsibility so it will get better.

Thank you for always taking the time to read my posts. Until next time, bye and ily 3>