Today was... something. Not my finest, and itâs hard not to point back to last night for setting the tone. I had someone overâa brief connection, not much depth, and certainly no spark. It wasnât fair how I said goodbye, but the vibe just wasnât there. Lesson learned: surface-level interactions leave you feeling emptier than if you'd just been alone.
Cleaning up today brought another storm of emotions. My living situation isnât cutting it anymore. Sharing a space comes with shared responsibilities, but when one side doesnât pull their weight, itâs like carrying dead weight uphill. My roommate hasnât been contributing to rent, and honestly, Iâm done being taken for granted. If he doesnât pay up by the end of the week, heâs out. Itâs not about being harshâitâs about respecting myself.
But what really got me today was thinking about my son. Heâs so brilliant, so full of life and ideas, yet the system treats him as if heâs just a case file. It kills me to see people with so much power over kidsâ futures act so carelessly. These judges, these so-called child care organizationsâthey donât see him. They donât listen. But this fight? Itâs far from over. Iâll do whatever it takes, not just for him but to ensure that no other parent has to feel this powerless.
I had grand plans for today, but sometimes, life demands you slow down. I let the silence speak and decided to just sit with the heaviness. Some days arenât for creatingâtheyâre for processing.
Today reminded me of the raw edges of life. Not everything falls into place, and not every battle feels like a victory in the moment. But thatâs the thing about persistence: you keep showing up, not just for yourself but for the ones who matter most.