I’ve always been the kid who asked “why” one too many times.

“Why does the moon follow me?”

“Why do we wear uniforms?”

“Why do I have to go to school?”

Growing up in Nigeria, where both spoken and unspoken rules press down like Lagos heat, I learned early that “why” can be dangerous. But here’s the truth: asking “why” is the first act of freedom.

In societies like ours, children are shaped to fit into neat boxes. You’re told to speak a certain way, dress a certain way, and dream within limits. Step outside that, and suddenly you're “disrespectful” or “too stubborn.”

Take respect, for example. It’s treated as something owed by age, not earned by character. You’re expected to kneel, to greet, to obey, whether or not the person on the other end is kind, honest, or worthy.

That never sat right with me, just like a lot of other things they said we had to accept.

The Ungovernable Journals is me choosing not to shrink. Just sharing, thinking out loud, questioning everything.

Being ungovernable is not about breaking rules for the sake of it. It’s about refusing to shrink into society’s idea of “normal.”

It’s me, a 23-year-old navigating the chaos of the world, asking questions that don’t have easy answers. Like, how do you chase dreams when the economy feels like a trap? How do you stay true when everyone’s shouting what “true” should be?

It’s searching for truth that feels like mine, not the one handed down in whispers and warnings.

I’m still trying to figure things out. Some days I get it right. Other days, I just make oats at 2 a.m. and wonder what the hell I’m doing. This journal is for all of it. The clarity, the mess, the wonder. This journal is where I’ll share my wins, my doubts, and the moments that make me feel alive.

If you’ve ever felt like you don’t fit in, maybe you’re not supposed to.

So, what’s your “why”?

What makes you unapologetically your best self? What makes you ungovernable?

P.S: The cover image is from Marcus Walinder's “In the Blink of an Eye” art series. His work is beautiful. Feel free to check him out on Instagram.